Time Travel?

In the movie "Secret", when Jay Chou played the song "Secret", he travelled back in time to find his love.

In the series "Proposal Daisakusen", Iwase Ken was given chances by an angel to go back in time in order for him to confess to his beloved.

And when I played both "Secret" and the theme song of "Proposal Daisakusen", "Ashita Hareru Kana", nothing happened to me. All that happened were feelings of sadness and isolation. I guess I was too consumed, too in tuned with the mood of the songs.

For the past 1 month, I have been experiencing bouts of depression and isolation. Something terrible has happened and I wished to travel back in time to rectify the situation.

But, reality is reality. What has happened has happened. No matter how much I regret over it, what has past has past. This past affected my present and it'll affect how I shape my future.

To lose someone so close to you is akin to losing your dearest family member. When I used the word "lose", it literally meant losing that someone to the point that that someone is akin to have already died.

You tried your best to reach back to that person, you tried your best to tell that person how much you love that person...but all is in vain. VAIN!

The Great Wall of China is slowly being built between you and that person. Messages can no longer pass through. You can no longer see that person. Technically, that person now ONLY lives in your memory.

I guess I have just proven one theory. You will love the person more when you are about and already lose that person.

Memories that are inscribed in your mind cannot be erased. No matter how hard you try to erase them in order to lessen your pain, you'll fail!

Treasure all those who are close to you. There may be times that your faith in that person falters, but continue to work hard on every relationship whether its friendship, courtship or relationship within the family.

Learn to listen and listen to learn. Do not do actions which you will likely to regret in the future.

The Great Wall of China is standing tall between me and that person. No matter how tall and strong this wall is, I will scale it! I will cross to the other side of the wall to meet that person. If I do not try climbing, I will NEVER get to the other side.

I will start my climb! I will find a way.

God, please help me. You know what I have went through. You know everything about me inside out. Only You can help me now. Please....