Random thoughts

I'm feeling so weird today. Slightly angry, slightly sad and slightly bored. I sat down and tried to dissect out my emotions.

Slightly angry - angry at someone who has an ego as high as the sky. through the eyes you see the heart, but through the person's eye i don't see a warmth in the heart. money. i think money really change a person. it increases the ego, increases the insecurity, it became an object of argument etc. i got a description of a parasite. though it may be a passing comment or a joke, some words are just not supposed to be used. i guess this really made me angry. should i start arguing back and risk clashes? i really don't know. but i think, i should start voicing out. it'll create some rifts but i think that is the right way.

Slightly sad - cause the person I want to be with is avoiding me and the person I don't want to be with is giving me so much hint. for the person i want to be with, why can't we give it a try? if it doesn't work out in the end, we always have our heavenly Father to fall back to for comfort. i guess, i'll let God lead the way. for the person i don't think i'm suitable for, i'm so sorry i had to drop hints and avoid you. i just don't think it'll work. sorry.

Slightly bored - no. i'm not slightly bored. I'm VERY bored. UK is such a boring place. Everyone drinks alcohol here which i don't. and with Malaysia (being ruled by idiots) making RM5 = £1 due to their NEP, corruption etc, enjoying food outside became a luxury.

I should contain all these feelings to prevent it from progressing from slight to very. God, help me!