Life of a medical student!

Ice Kacang Puppy Love

2011-03-20T08:42:00.002+08:00

The ending made me teared. It's not just 'another love story'. Its a love story that really bear resemblance to my life. For whatever reason we went separate ways, the time spent together can never be forgotten.

A year has passed. Lots of things have happened. I've even had crush on 2 separate girls. But, everytime I look at her face in the picture on my wall, it made me think back of the old times. No matter what happens in the future, I'm pretty sure the memory of us will never fade.

Random thoughts

2010-11-07T04:56:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so weird today. Slightly angry, slightly sad and slightly bored. I sat down and tried to dissect out my emotions.

Slightly angry - angry at someone who has an ego as high as the sky. through the eyes you see the heart, but through the person's eye i don't see a warmth in the heart. money. i think money really change a person. it increases the ego, increases the insecurity, it became an object of argument etc. i got a description of a parasite. though it may be a passing comment or a joke, some words are just not supposed to be used. i guess this really made me angry. should i start arguing back and risk clashes? i really don't know. but i think, i should start voicing out. it'll create some rifts but i think that is the right way.

Slightly sad - cause the person I want to be with is avoiding me and the person I don't want to be with is giving me so much hint. for the person i want to be with, why can't we give it a try? if it doesn't work out in the end, we always have our heavenly Father to fall back to for comfort. i guess, i'll let God lead the way. for the person i don't think i'm suitable for, i'm so sorry i had to drop hints and avoid you. i just don't think it'll work. sorry.

Slightly bored - no. i'm not slightly bored. I'm VERY bored. UK is such a boring place. Everyone drinks alcohol here which i don't. and with Malaysia (being ruled by idiots) making RM5 = £1 due to their NEP, corruption etc, enjoying food outside became a luxury.

I should contain all these feelings to prevent it from progressing from slight to very. God, help me!

Isle of Skye

2010-07-24T18:52:00.007+08:00

It has been a long time since I last blogged. Many things occurred in the past few months and I am now in Aberdeen doing my 4th year.

4th year has to be the most stressful year in my entire medical career up-to-date. I even had to do some readings during my 2 weeks summer break. Oh well, a holiday is a holiday and a holiday is not a holiday without travelling.

I visited the Isle of Skye for 2 days. Its a very beautiful island located at the east part of Scotland.

The journey from Aberdeen to the Isle of Skye is about 5 hours. Along the way, the girls are sleeping and the guys are driving.

We stayed in Portree, in a small house offering bread and breakfast for 28 pounds per person.

We went first to the Old Man of Storr. It was so windy that day that I barely reached the peak. The wind was so strong that it put me off balance for a few times at the peak.

This is Kilt Falls. Its really windy when you stay near it.

This is Dunvegan Castle. There was a renovation going on and the admission fees is still 6.50 pounds for the garden and the castle. Haha. The renovation totally spoilt the beauty of the castle. Can refund? :P

Eillean Donan Castle.

Some more sceneries.

Some poser pictures.

And finally, the travel crew.

1 litre of tears....

2010-03-23T02:13:00.004+08:00

The day she was conceived in her mother's womb.....

She was destined to die a horrible death....

At the age of 15, she was told that she suffers from an incurable genetic disease....

Life is like a prison...

She maintains her mental capacity but her physical capacity slowly deteriorates....

She slowly lose her ability to walk, to talk and to eat....

The guy she likes left her....

She is left to fend for herself....

Life is fragile....

Why....

Why did the disease chose her...

Why does she have to suffer...

She is just 15....

Life has a whole new meaning now....

The path she took to school bears a different meaning now....

She began looking at the trees....the blue sky....the children in the playground...

All this sight will disappear soon...

Soon...she will be seeing the four white walls of the wards...

Bring me back to the past....she said....

Why did you chose to become a doctor....

Why....Why.......

Dear Ng Shi Hui.....

The future is unpredictable....

Though we have been separated for 3 months now...

I still want to tell you that...

I love you very much....

Please return to me....

Please reply my love....

I am leaving soon....

Very soon......

Time Travel?

2010-01-31T01:08:00.002+08:00

In the movie "Secret", when Jay Chou played the song "Secret", he travelled back in time to find his love.

In the series "Proposal Daisakusen", Iwase Ken was given chances by an angel to go back in time in order for him to confess to his beloved.

And when I played both "Secret" and the theme song of "Proposal Daisakusen", "Ashita Hareru Kana", nothing happened to me. All that happened were feelings of sadness and isolation. I guess I was too consumed, too in tuned with the mood of the songs.

For the past 1 month, I have been experiencing bouts of depression and isolation. Something terrible has happened and I wished to travel back in time to rectify the situation.

But, reality is reality. What has happened has happened. No matter how much I regret over it, what has past has past. This past affected my present and it'll affect how I shape my future.

To lose someone so close to you is akin to losing your dearest family member. When I used the word "lose", it literally meant losing that someone to the point that that someone is akin to have already died.

You tried your best to reach back to that person, you tried your best to tell that person how much you love that person...but all is in vain. VAIN!

The Great Wall of China is slowly being built between you and that person. Messages can no longer pass through. You can no longer see that person. Technically, that person now ONLY lives in your memory.

I guess I have just proven one theory. You will love the person more when you are about and already lose that person.

Memories that are inscribed in your mind cannot be erased. No matter how hard you try to erase them in order to lessen your pain, you'll fail!

Treasure all those who are close to you. There may be times that your faith in that person falters, but continue to work hard on every relationship whether its friendship, courtship or relationship within the family.

Learn to listen and listen to learn. Do not do actions which you will likely to regret in the future.

The Great Wall of China is standing tall between me and that person. No matter how tall and strong this wall is, I will scale it! I will cross to the other side of the wall to meet that person. If I do not try climbing, I will NEVER get to the other side.

I will start my climb! I will find a way.

God, please help me. You know what I have went through. You know everything about me inside out. Only You can help me now. Please....

Passport day!

2009-12-19T14:59:00.002+08:00

It has been a few months now...hasn't it? Haha...

I've been busy with my finals and after that with my partner medical school stuff. The days are long ahead =D

Anyway, talking about partner medical school (PMS), I recently have to apply for a passport in order to accept my offer letter.

There I go, right from my tiny little shack in KL to the Immigration Centre in Sri Rampai to register for my passport. I went there a few weeks ago and the queue was very long. Back then, I wasn't desperate for it and I went back home. But then, last Thursday, I was REALLY REALLY DESPERATE for it.

So, I went to the immigration centre in Sri Rampai and reached there at around 10am. I know I'm relatively late (cause if you want to do things fast in immigration centres especially, the rule is, you have to be there 30 minutes before the office opens which means you got to be there at 7am).

Queueing for the number itself took me about 1hr and 30 minutes. Waiting for my number took about 3hr 30 minutes. After passing in the form, waiting to pay the passport money took me another 1hr. Finally to take the passport took me another 2 hr 30 minutes.

Altogether 8 hours spent just to get a little small red book done.

There were just so many people and not enough chairs in the office. I just hope that the government would start to increase its efficiency and quality of services starting with the immigration department.

8 hours spent by a few hundred people just to make one small little red book meant lost of productivity by that few hundred people and obviously, this would be a lost to the country.

To add salt to MY wound, at about 6.30pm after I got my passport, I found out that there was a pasar malam on and my car was stuck at the parking lot surrounded by stalls. My phone was out of battery and I did not have any small change to make a public call for help.

So I have to change for some coins and start calling my dad to pick me up. What a bad day eh? =D

When life gets tough....

2009-09-11T15:53:00.002+08:00

When life gets tough, how do we face it?

Many people have different different ways of adaptation. Even clinical depression is counted as an adaptation, but is that the way you want to end up being?

Semester 5 is indeed a challenging time for me. With so much distractions around me and so much work to do, sometimes I just wish I can walk out of my room and take a week break to rest. But I know, if I were to do this, my EOS 5 is as good as gone.

I was pretty stressed up recently due to some issues with my colleagues as well as the amount of accumulated work undone. Yet, at the end of the day, God took away my stress and pressures and gave me joy and happiness.

Listen to this.

Problems come and when they come, they usually come in bulk. If we were to focus on the problem, the problem will just seemed to increase and there would be no way out. Eventually, the problem will take you with it and you'll become the problem to the people around you.

Ms Vera, my zone leader for my cell group shared that in order to solve problems, we must start thinking of the solutions. We need to start focussing on the solutions so that our mind would be towards thinking of more solutions and slowly, solutions will start appearing in our mind.

Proverbs 3:5-6 tells us to trust in the Lord with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding and in all ways, acknowledge Him and He shall direct our paths.

Who on this earth by worrying about problems around him can add an hour to his life? Therefore, do not worry and start looking towards God. Ask and you shall receive, knock and it will be open.

God has been good to me. With the amount of problems that hit me recently, I am lucky that God brought me out from such terrible situation whereby emptiness and stress haunt me almost everyday.

Thank you God and may my thoughts be a powerful encouragement to all of you.

Creating a caring community =D

2009-08-16T13:54:00.002+08:00

Everyday we flip the newspaper, we see news about politicians politicking again each other. A rich man dies and it appears in the first page of the newspaper. It appears to me as if the mass media is more concerned about the rich and famous people.

To be truthful to you, if you drive from KL to PJ, you would probably not noticed anyone poor or needy throughout your journey. All that concerns you is to reach your destination in time.

Let me give you a challenge. Take a walk around Kuala Lumpur by your legs. Walk and pause every few minutes and look at the things around you. There are so many poor people around but yet, why wouldn't we feel it in our daily lives?

For some, without a BMW is poor. For some, not owning 10 pairs of shoes is poor.

How about those that does not have a place to stay and doesn't have proper meals? Being human, we tend to judge and probably say that these beggars have hands and legs and they can work. But, have you hear their side of the story?

Jesus saw, learnt, listen and responded to the sick man according to the gospel of John.

First of all, we need to pause and start looking around with concentration. A caring eye stops and look around for signs of poor and needy people.

Media nowadays put a big big big billboard of the smallest things on earth. An iPod shuffle for example earned a big big billboard advertisement while poor people probably earn a A4 paper cut to highlight their terrible living conditions.

Secondly, we need to have a open heart to learn or seek some knowledge about the poor and needy people.

I ask because I care. We see a poor man on the road. How long has he been living at the roadside? Where are his family? What does he always do and how can I help him? He could have him there for years and years and his family have probably left him. After we know about his situation, then we can find the best solution to help him which is to provide shelter and food for him and train him so that he can work for himself in the future.

Thirdly, we need to have ears which are willing to listen.

We see a beggar on the road coming towards us. Automatically in your mind is to avoid the beggar and automatically too you'll judge the beggar. You'll probably call him a lazy person. But when you listen to what the beggar has to say, you learnt that he has tried to find jobs many many times but no one is willing to hire him because he is disabled in a certain way.

We need to understand the poor and listen to them. There is an old man who is very very rich. His son gives him thousands and thousands of money every month and this old man can buy virtually anything. But he is still not happy. Why? That's cause all he wants is a call from his son. (so, faster get your phones and give a call to your parents =D)

Fourthly, we need to have hands and feets that will respond.

There is no use talking about poor people everyday when no one actually goes into the field and help him. You can talk about ways to help them every single day but these poor people would not benefit unless you go in and help them out. =D

I am not a pastor and I don't really know how to encourage everyone around me to be caring people.

But what I want to point is, as Christians, we are here to love one another. Love your neighbour, says God. Your neighbour would include everyone including those poor people on the street.

I hope one day, Malaysia will be a caring nation with lots and lots of caring communities around. =D

Why English is so hard to learn?

2009-07-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

Almost 21 years of life already, I still do not know exactly what are verbs, nouns, adjectives, etc... Probably my teachers didn't do a great job during my primary and secondary school in explaining these words for me.

But in less than 10 minutes today, I fully understood what these words are and what they represent.

But still, there are so many things in English which are difficult.

Watch!

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes;

But the plural of ox should be oxen, not oxes.

The one fowl is goose, but two are geese;

Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a whole lot of mice;

But the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

Why shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

The cow in the plural may be cows or kine.

But the plural of vow is vows, not vine.

And I speak of a foot, and you show me your feet.

But I give you a boot - would a pair be called a beet?

Of one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

Why shouldn't the plural if booth be called beeth?

If the singular is this, and the plural is these,

Should the plural of kiss be nicknamed kese?

Then one may be that, and three may be those,

Yet the plural of hat would never be hose.

We speak of brother, and also of brethren,

But though we may mother, we never say methren.

The masculine pronouns are he, his and him,

Just imagine the feminine she, shis and shim!

So our English, I think you will all agree,

Is the trickiest language you ever did see. =D

The Historian.

2009-07-20T00:32:00.005+08:00

The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova. I first saw this book in popular bookstore in Ampang Point last year and it was terribly cheap.

I took up the book, flipped the pages and decided to part with my 20 bucks for this book. My pet sister, seeing that I've decided to get this book offered to buy it for me as a present. Haha. Thank you Allison. =D

It took me a real long time to read this book. However, in the last 1 week, I read almost 300 pages to officially finish off the book.

First of all, I would want to praise the author for writing such a good book. Her descriptions of the places the main character visited is just superb. I can really imagined how beautiful the places are in my mind with those wonderful descriptions.

Then, in between those wonderful places, the author managed to put in a thriller. Its a story about a girl and her dad talking about the past. The events in the past were so meticulously described that it makes me being able to follow it easily.

Then, there are chapters whereby after reading the end of the chapter, the thrill that the story gave me made me want to move on to the next chapter.

The introduction up to the middle part was good. The only part which needs a little bit of improvement is the ending. I have that thrill in me throughout the whole book until the ending came. The evil character was described as someone so powerful but in the end.......what a brief ending for a great book. Have to improve on this if possible.

Anyway, I was in church last saturday bringing my first aid book around as my storybook since at that time, I have nothing to read. I went into the bookshop and I found this great book called 'Boundaries'. Only 25 bucks =D

I think this book will help me to build up myself and solve some internal problems that have been affecting me for the past few months. =D

Abortion...would you do it or not?

2009-07-14T00:17:00.005+08:00

Is the baby in the bottom picture cute? I think its pretty cute.

Now, compare to the picture at the bottom. What are your thoughts about it?

The baby above is taken out forcefully and prematurely from the mother's womb by a practice called abortion.

Every year, millions of babies are killed through abortion all around the world. These abortions can be legal as in the States or they can be illegal as in Malaysia for example.

2 weeks ago when I was in one of my posting, a women approached the doctor that I am posted to for an abortion. She came with a child by her side and she's about 40 years old. She does not have any illnesses and her baby in her womb does not threaten her life and therefore, abortion is illegal in her case in Malaysia. The doctor turned her request down and she left.

Now, if the women comes to you, would you accept her request to abort the baby? You can easily earn RM300 and the procedure will be over even before you know it.

However, if I were the doctor, I would turn her request down and in return I would advise her to keep the baby. Here are my reasons.

First of all, I believe that a baby, even a foetus is God's gift to you. Psalm 127:3 says, "Behold, children are a gift from the Lord." God creates personally every life - Scripture makes that fact clear. So, aborting a baby is akin to rejecting God's gift and going against God's will.

The minute the egg is fertilised by the sperm, the zygote itself contains life. So, killing a foetus is just like killing an adult human. They both HAVE LIFE! In addition, one of the commandments by God is "Thou Shalt not KiLL".

Now, if you read Malaysian news, when dogs from Pulau Ketam are transferred to neighbouring island for them to slowly starve to death in order to lower down the population of dogs in Pulau Ketam, animal lovers around the world make a lot of noise.

Yet, when abortion takes place rampantly in places like the States, not many make a fuss about it. It seems that now, our babies or rather our foetuses are degraded to a lower status compare to dogs.

Supposed that you performed an abortion on a mother and the baby comes out alive. What would you do? You can see the baby moving its limbs etc but you clearly know that it would not survive for long because you've taken the foetus out prematurely. So as heartless as doctors can be, they leave the living foetus to death on the operating table. That's how cruel men can be nowadays.

I am so totally against abortion because of my religious principles as well as my beliefs. There are many more reasons that I could give that made me so much against abortion. I believe abortions that are legalised in certain countries are like mass infanticide.

What about you?

Evolution of doctors.

2009-07-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

A long long time ago, medical students become apprentices of doctors to learn how to treat patients and when they are competent, they themselves become the doctors.

Not long ago, most medical students will end up graduating to become a medical officer and that's it. Not many go into the specialist field because it takes a long time to study for it.

Now, most medical students will become a medical officer and from there, they will continue to specialise in fields that they are interested in.

Last time, health care professionals study everything in the human body. Now, doctors are studying more and more on smaller things like an organ, or part of an organ, or part of part of an organ or part and part and part of an organ. We become more and more knowledgeable about smaller and smaller things and in the end we will be expert on nothing.

How ironic =D

Weekend gateway....

2009-07-05T16:48:00.007+08:00

Well, this weekend has been great. Initially, I had to make a choice. My group of friends and my family wants to go to Genting. Which side should I choose?

After thinking for 10 minutes, weighing out the pros and cons, I've decided to follow my family instead. This way, I would have more time to spend with my family and also I would have a comfortable journey plus being able to save some money.

So, the journey started somewhere in the late afternoon and this time, I had a chance to drive up to Genting with my dad watching closely at the side.

We checked in at Awana Resort Genting first before proceeding to Genting. The rooms are reasonably alright and facilities there are reasonably good.

There is also a swimming pool at the resort filled with pretty girls. That's considered an attraction yea? =D

After checking in and unloaded our stuff, we went up to Taman Cendawan near Genting. There, you can find a small mushroom farm and reasonably good food but with reasonably price tags. Haha.

The fish is great and it cost about RM39. Well, 4 dishes, 5 people eat, total is about RM90. A bit more expensive than KL price but seeing that its Genting, I guess its considered cheap already.

Ok. Next stop: Genting....BUT...unfortunately, we took the wrong turning and ended up in this temple. Quite a beautiful temple at the middle of the hill. =D

After that, Genting...finally! Well, the only person who can go for those rides FOC are my younger sisters. Each ride is RM8 and I've sat on them thousand of times d so I skipped all sorts of rides in this trip.

I walked around enjoying the cool air inside and well, I attempted to enter the casino. Sadly, the police in charge blocked me. Oh well, I guess I have to wait a few more months then before I can explore what's inside. =)

Then...there's this live skeleton which kicked a gorilla down a house and the gorilla was dead. Many onlookers but no one came to give CPR...

Oh well, I just chill around and at about 10pm, we went back to our resort. Genting is very near to KL actually, about 1hr drive and this is a reasonably good place to destress in the weekend. =D

eMCee....

2009-07-03T20:41:00.003+08:00

Today was my last day of GP posting. So there I was, discussing some cases with the GP when a female patient registers at the counter.

Then I sat back a bit and the nurse called the patient in. When she sat down, the doctor ask what's wrong and she began relating her illness.

Doctor: So, what brought you here today?

Patient: You see doctor, I am feeling giddiness for the past 1 week. And then, I went to this chinese sinsei, they told me that my blood pressure very low. I think its because of my stress la. My work gives me a lot of stress and I will resign it because I think my work isn't doing me any good.

Doctor: I see. What work are you doing?

Patient: I'm a teacher nearby. Teaching those kids from primitive chinese schools english really gives me a headache. I'm very stressed because of this and I want to resign this job.

Doctor: I see. Ok. Let me examine you.

(Doctor then checked the blood pressure, lungs, throat and eyes)

Doctor: I've checked your blood pressure, its normal. Your lungs, throat and eyes are all normal. Next time, don't trust those chinese sinsei. I think your giddiness is due to stress. I'll give you some medication, you eat it first, and if it persists, come back and see me.

Patient: Thank you doctor.

(Patient leaves)

So, I went back to my discussion with the doctor.

After a while, the nurse came in.

Nurse: Doctor, I think the patient wants MC la.

Doctor: I knew it. These kind of case always happen. They don't want to ask the doctor themselves but go through the nurse.

(Doctor signed the MC)

Me: Hmm, doctor, the patient repeatedly say want to quit want to quit, but in the end ask for MC. I think that patient comes here to take MC in the first place only. Where got sick de....

Oh, and this is not an isolated case. Almost 50% of patients which comes to the clinic would request for an MC even on the slightest discomfort.

But doctors have no choice but to give in or else they'll get angry and create trouble. Then they'll just walk over to another clinic to get their MC. Lazy people...HAIHz!

An experience...

2009-07-02T01:10:00.002+08:00

I woke up early today at about 6.45am for my gp posting. For this whole week, I have been posted to a gp clinic to observe how a gp works.

It is a good experience. I get to see real patients coming in for a variety of disorder ranging from cough and cold to more rare cases like a haematoma under the nail that requires the nail to be removed for drainage of clotted blood.

Other than the clinical aspect, I also observe certain cases whereby at the most tiny feeling of discomfort, patients come and usually ask for medical certificates.

Then I also hear some stories whereby patients who are suspected drug addicts come in to get probably some pethidine or sleeping tablets etc.

There are funny cases, serious cases but mostly minor cases like cough and cold. You can even see big guys struggling when the doctor wants to draw blood or give an injection. Haha.

To my surprise, I even had a chance to examine a young girl who had a congenital tricuspid malformation.

It has been a good experience especially when the doctor explains certain cases which are interesting.

At the end of the day, I left the clinic feeling satisfied with the day's teaching and of course exhausted. =D

Gombak posting =D

2009-06-25T20:33:00.003+08:00

Ah, finally my Gombak posting is done. This posting has shown me how underprivileged those Orang Asli are compared to the normal Malaysians walking on the street.

Well, first of all, this Gombak hospital I am referring to is the only hospital in Malaysia meant specifically for Orang Asli only. It is also a hospital which is different than the others because it comes under the 'Jabatan Hal Ehwal Orang Asli' ministry instead of the health ministry.

The main building which houses the wards is a 4 storey building with the medical, antenatal, paediatrics and an isolation ward.

I start my day by having some delicious roti canai and a cup of milo ais opposite the hospital. I can say that the roti canai there is indeed one of the best roti canai I've ever tasted.

At about 8.15am, I am briefed by Dr. Sow and then together in a group, we went and clerk some patients. Technically, for some of the wards, the number of nurses is more than the number of patients and therefore, we have to divide ourselves into a group of 4 to clerk one patient.

Talking to the Orang Asli really gives me a headache sometimes. There is this communication barrier whereby they could not really understand my questions and therefore they just smile at me when I ask them questions. In addition to that, they have a poor sense of time and it is hard to ask them the duration of their main complaint.

However, we tried modifying our questions in several ways to obtain a complete history from the patients there.

Now, here is an interesting fact about this hospital. There is a policy that enable the patients to move around freely while being in the hospital. They can bring their whole family to stay with them as there are hostels within the hospital for them to stay in.

In addition to that, with the fact that the ratio of nurses to patients is so low, the nurses there are pretty close to the patients. I see the nurses bringing some kids belonging to the patients for a walk in the morning, having a small chat with the patients in the afternoon etc.

My experience there in Gombak hospital is so different from the normal government hospitals whereby its always overcrowded and understaffed.

Well, if those new young doctors out there wishes to contribute to the needy people, Gombak hospital would be a good place to go. =D

New Balance Klang Pacers 1/2 marathon 2009

2009-06-09T11:09:00.003+08:00

Last Sunday, I took part in an 11km run which was organised by the Klang Pacers Athletic Club. This is my 2nd run so far.

I woke up at about 4am on Sunday. By 4.30am, I've already went to the meeting point outside IMU and by 6am, the IMU team, reached the destination point, Setia Alam!

After a few rounds of warm-ups, I was ready to go.

When it started, the only thing I know was I was quite at the back compare to the rest of the IMU people. Haha. This is what you get when you are lazy to train.

A total of 3 inclines was encountered during the run. I ran and ran and ran and ran and after running about 6km, I finally couldn't take it. That's when I know, I'm gonna lose to the old aunt running beside me....aihz!~!!

At about the 7th km, I took 2 cups of water and at about the 10th km, I took another 2 cups of water. Big mistake! With so much water in my stomach, everytime I try to run, I feel as if the water in my stomach is trying to get out through my mouth.

So, I begin to walk again.

Along my way, I notice a man taking pictures while running. I guess he must be a blogger. From the way I see, I think he's actually very fit but due to his blogging passion, he needs more pictures and ended up taking more pictures than running.

Anyway, I finished my 11km run in about 1hour 30minutes. That's pretty sucky compare to

No:001--38m 39s---Khartik A/L Jayaraman

Can you believe it??? I think that guy is like flying along the way. Haha. Anyway, yeap, the only person who received a trophy from IMU is No:010--2h 21m 32s---Lee Le Min. She got 10th place for the 21km race. Everyone else just received a finishing medal.

My next race would be on the 2nd of August for the Adidas King of the Road. I signed up for the 10km run. The qualifying time is 50 minutes. That's crazy at first thought, but I know, I need more training...that's all.

So, today will be the first of my training session. My training session will last for 8 weeks, 3 times a week. I don't know if it'll work and I won't put any high hopes on it. But hopefully, I'll finish the race within an hour at least....

“You Can’t Get Enough of Transformers”

2009-06-07T14:00:00.003+08:00

Well, if you don't know what is transformers, please walk to the nearest wall, bang your head three times on it and then read a short description below....

Coming from the planet Cybertron, the Transformers are divided into two factions (as usual....must have good and evil), the heroic Autobots, led by Optimus Prime, and the evil Decepticons, led by Megatron. They are able to "transform", rearranging their bodies into common objects including vehicles (the most commonly known form), devices or animals.

Ever since young, I've been watching transformers (I bet everyone says that), since transformers is one of the many cartoons that is aired on ntv7 or tv3 every weekend. In addition, I also have a large collection of transformers toys all the way from London...pretty cool leh!

But the REAL addiction to transformers came in 2007! Transformers finally made it into the cinema!!!

I bet no one can forget Bumblebee! That funny yellow car really thrills me on. Many people would prefer all those main characters like Optimus Prime, Megatron etc, but I think Bumblebee is the BEST!

I like the way the movie producers made the cars turning into robots and vice versa. With so much detail being emphasised on the designs of the robots, I can assure you, transformers would.....err....WILL!!!! be the BEST graphics movie you ever watch in your life so far.

Coupled with the cool storyline (I can't tell you transformers II storyline YET), I am sure this movie is gonna be a BOOM! Damn! I wanna watch this leh....

How does the enemy comes at us?

2009-06-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since I last updated this blog. I've been busy with my internal assessment aka summative for about 1 month. Just ended my exam last Friday and now I have to do the selectives for another 3 weeks and posting for another 3 weeks before I get my long 3 weeks break.

IMU is just so good at keeping the students busy ever AFTER the exams...

Anyway, I attended church last Saturday and the pastor imparted on me a really strong message. I don't know whether what I'm going to share is accurate but I will try my level best to recall from the sermon and add in some of my experiences. =D

How does the enemy comes at us?

1) They try to distract our focus.

Life is full of distractions. Everytime we want to do something, other things will definitely prop up out of nowhere and take some of our time. For example, everytime I want to finish a lecture note, my bed which is a few feet away will send an aura of seducement and I almost always fall for it. Haihz.

Sad isn't it? And in the end, we tend to lose focus and ended up with a lousy finish at what we are doing.

So how do we deal with distractions?

Firstly, there is a need for discernment. We need to be able to discern whether the distractions that occur is worth sidetracking from your main focus. For example, you have an exam tomorrow and suddenly your gang call you out for DOTA. Would you want to go? Is DOTA or exam more important? Is it worth risking your exam for the sake of DOTA?

Next, we have to refuse from being sidetracked from our priorities. You can play DOTA anytime and your gang of friends will most likely play the next week or so. But exams only come once and if you fail it, you're gonna pay a high price for it. So in this case, we need to really define our priorities well.

2) They spread bad news about us.

Now, ever heard of the thing called gossip? Gossip is probably a story full of exaggerated statements and lies. If something really has happened, its not called gossip, its called facts. But facts become gossips when you add salt and pepper into it. And through gossips from your enemies, do prepare to expect false accusations.

Now, I have been a victim of gossiping before and I am sure everyone has been a victim as well. When others gossip, they felt that gossiping about others is a topic and they can spend hours in mamak talking about it. But what they do not know is that the person whom they are gossiping about will have his image tarnished unknowingly. Would you like that to happen to you?

Don't do things to others when you do not want them to do the same to you.

Try not to be a rumour monger...think before you start spreading false news.

So how do we deal with all these slander and lies?

Firstly, we have to live a blameless life. This is followed by a flat denial at all the accusations sent towards your way. When someone alleged that you have probably cheated someone and you know you didn't do it, you would go all out to deny that accusation compare to when you really did cheat someone and then try to deny it.

At the same time, get onto your knees and seek God's strength to guide you through. We know, with God, everything is possible. Courage is fear that has said its prayers!

Reference for everything above: Nehemiah 6:1-14

Well, that's roughly about it. No man is perfect but we should always be working towards becoming Christ-like. May God bless all of you!

Break....

2009-05-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

Summative is coming.

This time is 3 systems together...something like an EOS 3 already.

Taking a break till summative is over...

Reflections....

2009-05-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

Another 4 weeks of renal, sem 4 will come to an end. Then, I will be officially called a third year medical student.

In front of me, I can see tough challenges ahead. 4 weeks from now, there will be a summative for me.

This summative consists of three systems and there are more questions involved than my past summatives. In December, I will have my EOS 5 which will consist of 10 systems with only 2 weeks to prepare.

Life has been getting tougher throughout this journey as a medical student. Back in Taylors, I thought Alevels was the hardest thing on earth. Now, my mind perceives EOS 5 as something very very challenging.

I guess this is life right?

Only with challenges that we may be able to progress.

When we were young, walking seemed to be an impossible task. Even younger than that, when we first came out of our mother's womb, taking the first breath is consider very stressful to our body.

This is the fact. Anything that differs from what we usually do is stress.

So, how do we go about handling these challenges?

Throughout my life, I've seen people running away from these challenges. They started dropping out from school, takings drugs and doing crimes.

On the other hand, I've seen a number of people handling these challenges successfully. At least 80% of them who handle these challenges successfully have God behind them.

That is my way of handling challenges. I pray for God's strength and Holy Spirit to be with me. Doing something together is half the burden.

The journey with God has been a wonderful time so far and I really appreciate the fact that God's wonders is working within me.

I want to express thanksgiving to the Lord! Praises to you Father! =D

For the lovers of LOVE STORY and VIVA LA VIDA =D

2009-04-29T04:46:00.002+08:00

This is a very nice piece. Do enjoy!

When we were small.....

2009-04-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

小时侯我总会这样牵着你的手
xiao shi hou wo zhong hui zhe yang qian zhe ni de shou
(i used to hold you hands like this when we were young)

只是渴望能够在你的身边守侯
zhi shi ke wang neng gou zai ni de shen bian shou hou
(i was just hoping to wait by your side)

为了保护你不小心割破手指头
wei le bao hu ni bu xiao xin ge po shou zhi tou
(to protect you from cutting your own fingers)

这个小伤却让你泪流心痛
zhe ge xiao shang que rang ni liu lei xin tong
(these little wounds cause you tears and heart ache)

长大后我们越来越远
zhang da yi hou wo men yue lai yue yuan
(we have grown further apart as we grow)

分隔地球的两边
fen ge di qiu de liang bian
(being separated in two different sides of the world)

何时才能够见面
he shi cai neng gou jian mian
(when can we meet again)

熟悉微笑的脸
shou xi wei xiao de lian
(the familiar smiling face)

回忆起我们小时候
hui yi qi wo men xiao shi hou
(reminds me of those days)

闭上眼睛就能感受
bi shang yan jing jiu neng gan shou
(i can feel it when i close my eyes)

在我们心中漫漫流动的温柔
zai wo men xin zhong man man liu dong de wen rou
(the softness that slowly flowing in our heart)

离开了我们小时候
li kai le wo men xiao shi hou
(drifting apart from those memories when we were young)

现在你会不会想我
xian zai ni hui bu hui xiang wo
(you wouldn't be thinking of me now)

也许你找到一个人为你守侯忘了了
ye xu ni zhao de yi ge ren wei ni shou hou, wang liao le
(probably you have found another person by your side, forgetting me)

回忆起我们小时候
hui yi qi wo men xiao shi hou
(thinking back when were young)

闭上眼睛就能感受
bi shang yan jing jiu neng gan shou
(i can feel it once i close my eyes)

站在窗前的你说了晚安就走
zan jai chuang qian de ni shuo le wan an jiu zhou
(you left after you said goodnight to me in front of the window)

离开了我们小时候
li kai le wo men xiao shi hou
(drifting apart from those memories when we were young)

现在的你不再想我
xian zai de ni bu zai xiang wo
(you woudn't be thinking of me now)

这个时候忘了了
zhe ge shi hou, wang liao le
(at this moment, forgetting me)

那次以后我们两个再也没有见面
na ci yi hou wo men liang ge zai ye mei you jian mian
(after that time, we don't see each other any more)

我只能说再见
wo zhi neng shuo, zai jian
(i can only say, goodbye)

Mission

2009-04-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

Venturing into the deep jungles of Sarawak to spread the gospel? Going to Cambodia to spread the gospel? Trekking the dangerous Himalayan mountains to spread the gospel?

I don't think every Christian have the luxury to do any of the above.

However, I share some thoughts for those who still want to serve the Lord but yet have little time. As a medical student myself, I often find that time is just not on my side. So many things to study, so little time. But yet, I do try to serve the Lord in one way or another.

All of us are called to spread the gospel everywhere we go, whether in the marketplace, in schools, universities or at home. There are so many many many many ways to spread the gospel.

I was taking a lift down a while ago, and someone in the lift gave me a pamphlet containing some info on christianity. Well, my first response was, I am already a Christian. I'm glad that these people take time out of their busy schedule to spread the gospel around their neighbourhood.

As a busy person, I recently signed up to be a voluntary teacher in my church. My job, to teach a few students english and to monitor their progress. I can say, that this job is tough. Some students doesn't want to try, some students hoping for answers only, some students talking while I'm teaching, I guess all these are part and parcel of the profession of teaching.

But the point is this. No matter how busy someone is, as long as the heart is willing to find time, there will be time. The person in the lift took just 10 seconds to pass me the pamphlet and try to explain Christianity to me.

I took just 3 hours off my normal schedule to teach students and hopefully one day, they'll know that the person behind their progress is Christ the Lord.

What about you?

Relief....!!!

2009-04-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

MAPCU chess and MAPCU chinese chess 2009 is finally over!

For both the events, IMU has gotten 3rd placing.

Praise the Lord!

Endless nights of training has finally paid off!

I can now resume back to studying. I have missed 7 weeks of lectures and now it is time for me to catch up.

Pre-MAPCU

2009-04-06T09:42:00.002+08:00

This is the final week before the MAPCU chess tournament this Saturday 11/4/09.

I've asked all the players to stay back everyday to train from 5.30pm onwards. Why didn't I do the training earlier? Its because everyone is busy with their studies. So this final week is our final push.

We'll give in our best and leave the results to God. Our play this Saturday will show that God is in our game. We'll play our best. Even when facing national players, we'll fight with our best. Whether we lose or win, we'll praise God. Amen!

Respect.

2009-03-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

Disrespectful people. I've came across a few throughout my IMU life and the most recent one involve a guard at my condominium.

Knowing that I am a resident, the guard continues to behave disrespectfully and arrogantly when I needed his help to do something. Just because I am 21 and he is 28 (so he claims), it doesn't mean that I have to respect him and he does not have to respect me.

If one can't respect people younger than him, he is bound to fail in life. Besides, he claims that he is a used car dealer. Why would a used car dealer ended up being a guard? That's what too absurb and a lously lie =(

I talked to him humbly but in return, he acts like he is the boss.

Worst of all, during our interaction, he started taking out his cigarette and started smoking.

I don't get angry easily but when he started telling lies, giving false information and started to threaten me, its time to act.

I've typed out my complaint report and I will send it to the management for further action. =D

Sexual History?

2009-03-23T23:14:00.003+08:00

Ok. Endocrine system is over. This week is the start of Reproductive system.

So, I had my CSU today and it was on history taking. We have to take the patient's menstrual history, obstetrical history and SEXUAL HISTORY!

So the problem is, HOW TO ASK this kind of question man?

Imagine this:
Patient comes in suspecting herself to be pregnant.

Me: So madam, how many times you have sex since your last menstrual period?

Patient: WTF? Why you want to know that?

Me: I want to know it cause you come in suspecting that you are pregnant. So if you have sexual intercourse since your last menstrual period, there is a chance that you are pregnant.

Patient: Eh, you think I stupid ar. If I don't have sex, how on earth can I suspect myself to be pregnant? You think I virgin Mary meh?

Me: Err...Sorry madam.

Another scenario.
Patient comes in telling you that she have dysmenorrhoea.

Me: So madam, how was intercourse with your husband?

Patient: Eh young man. What is this? This is privacy man! Why are you asking such a question! I want to change doctor!!! Get me a female doctor. I am not comfortable sharing this with you!

Me: Err....ok.

So you see, taking sexual history is a pain in the ass.

Oh, I accidentally said this to the patient. (simulated patient k!)

Patient complains of trouble conceiving.

Me: Err, probably your husband entered the wrong hole. You know, wrong technique.

Patient: Speechless.....

Haha. I actually read about a story of a couple in China having trouble conceiving for the past 10 years because the husband has been penetrating the anus all the while without knowing the correct technique.

Sad isn't it?

Too much to cover....

2009-03-21T13:14:00.002+08:00

Diabetes Mellitus (DM), one of the most common disease in Malaysia is indeed a MUST STUDY topic for ALL medical students.

To understand DM, we must first understand the actions of insulin as well as the different glucose transporters you have on different cells.

Then we have to know what would happen when there is an absolute or relative deficiency of insulin which would cause DM.

This is such a pain!

So far, I've found out that 'Review of Medical Physiology by William F. Ganong' gives the best explanation on the pathophysiology of the signs and symptoms you have in DM.

This will take hours! There goes my Saturday =(

Endocrine week OVER!

2009-03-21T01:51:00.002+08:00

Urgh!

Endocrine week is finally over and I must admit that this system has the LEAST histology stuff for us to recognise. With endocrine done, there are only 4 more systems before I have to leave for my partner university.

Australia, UK and New Zealand. All three sounds good but which should I pick?

Man, I really need God's wisdom is guiding my choice. Help me Father!

Q&A

2009-03-16T01:28:00.005+08:00

Ok. Here is a short question.

If a person, for some reasons (probably a parathyroidectomy) have hypocalcaemia that is very severe, what are the common complications?

(death is one of the answer...LOLz...any others? =D)

Self-study?

2009-03-15T01:04:00.005+08:00

Consider this situation.

Student: Sir, can you tell me the pathophysiology of the fine tremors seen in hyperthyroidism?

Lecturer: (Stares at the student) What is the pathophysiology of the fine tremors seen in hyperthyroidism? Now, you tell me. I thought I told you to read Talleys before you come.

Student: Sorry sir. I didn't have time to read it this week.

Lecturer: Ok. Now, your assignment. Go back and read about the pathophysiology of fine tremors in hyperthyroidism and tell me tomorrow during class.

Student: ....

Ok. Let us consider another situation.

After an hour of lecture on disorders of the thyroid gland,

Lecturer: There are so much things that you can learn about in disorders of the thyroid gland. If I were to tell you everything, I think I would need 2 months to teach all of you. Since I am allocated only 1 hour for this lecture, all of you have to go back and read on your own. My lecture is simply not enough and I am giving you an outline only.

Student: ......

Ok. I have basically a lot of examples in mind but I will stop at 2 examples for now.

Base on the above examples, what do you think about self-study?

From my experience, I would want to first say that self-study is actually a great concept in modern teaching. There are so many things to learn in this world and everyone studies at their own pace. I can probably choose to read about respiratory diseases today while another person can choose to read about endocrine diseases today. It is total freedom!

Besides, self-study is also great in the sense that I can read a bit more detail on the subjects that I like and I have all the time in the world to slowly study those subjects.

Honestly, I would love a 2 hour lecture a day and then spend my whole day reading and playing rather than having lectures for hours and tutorials after that and there goes my whole day.

But the problem is..........don't you think that the self-study concept is prone to abuses?

Most of the time, we students are forced to read up on our own. For example, in histology, the lecturer will describe the lesions seen in like a few seconds and then skip to the next slide. Or most of the times, during lectures, the lecturer would assume that we know the basics and they would usually speed in their lectures due to the limitation of time.

What the lecturer doesn't know is that, they cannot always assume that we know everything. What they should have done is to build our foundation before going into details.

For example, before we are given slides of histology, the lecturer should first teach us how to identify the cells and the extracellular matrix etc. The foundation must be build before they throw us into the world of self-study.

Imagine throwing a standard 1 student into the world of physics. Do you think he will understand the facts in the book eventhough he read is thousands of time?

The problem with that standard 1 student is that he doesn't have a strong foundation to comprehend something as complex as physics.

This goes the same with us students. We do not have a strong foundation to comprehend certain things that the lecturers assumed that we know.

That is why, self-study is a great concept but it must be wisely implemented to avoid any abuses on it.

Medical Books!

2009-03-10T20:59:00.002+08:00

I read only lecture notes in sem 1, sem 2 and sem 3 and I passed my exams with reasonable grades. IMU is one of the few medical universities whereby you can pass everything just by reading lecture notes whether or not you understand the whole topic.

But recently, I have started flipping my medical books. The amount of information that I have gotten out of medical books is just enormous. I am starting to discover the tremendous amount of mistakes in concepts and facts that I have developed in these 2 years by reading solely notes.

It is true that most of the time, with all the facts in our brains, we can logically work our way to understand a certain topic without the need of someone to actually tell you how it works.

For example, today, a doctor asked me why we can only see signs and symptoms in a child with growth hormone deficiency at the age of 3 and above and not earlier?

I used common sense and told her that the peak growth for a child is around the age of 3 onwards. If the height is way below the average height for age and sex, we can safely think of the possibility that the child has deficiency in growth hormone.

Well, the doctor praised me for my answer, but what she doesn't know is the fact that I used my logic to come up with that answer and I myself wasn't sure whether it was right or wrong.

That's the point! When we only survive on lecture notes, we tend to work things using logic and we are never sure whether our understanding is right or wrong.

All our understanding of all the topics may not be tested in exams but I believe that one day, when problems occur in real patients due to our misunderstanding of certain concepts, that's the time when it is too late to turn back.

I have just started reading books to enhance my knowledge. It is exhaustive and stressful but I am taking it one step at a time.

How about you?

p/s: For medical students out there, if you want to know what books I would recommend, kindly post a message at the comment box. =D

Life Restart!

2009-03-09T02:23:00.003+08:00

2 weeks of orientation is finally over.

I've made some friends along the way and back home, I have loads of work undone. I have 2 weeks of lecture notes untouched, 2 PBLs which I need to redo and 2 events which I need to update myself on.

I guess I need some time to reorganise my life back to the way it used to be....

I just hope time will be on my side....

I need to work hard!!!

Electives in Seremban Part VI

2009-02-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

It was Thaipusam replacement holiday on the 9th of February so we decided to take a break on that day. Okla, technically, ward rounds is taking a toll on me and I think I need a break. =D

Anyway, it seems like the quality of my elective in Seremban Hospital is gradually improving. On Tuesday, we had Dr. Saroj guiding us in his case presentation session. Basically, he is a great man and a very knowledgeable one. The seniors told me that they have never seen this man getting angry. Pretty nice right? =D

On Wednesday, we had Dr. James guiding us in his case presentation session. This man is a cool man. He has his own way of making jokes and that got me entertained and at the same time, he gives good explanation about cases which helped me to remember stuff well.

On Thursday, we had Dr. Subhash guiding us in his task-based learning session. He’s pretty knowledgeable and I get to learn quite a bit from his lecture. If I’m not mistaken, he’s a surgeon and after attending his lecture, I find surgery a bit too tough for me. I really need to buck up on anatomy!!!

Basically, this elective has been a good one.

I get to hear gallop rhythm (due to heart failure), fine crepitations (due to pulmonary oedema) and ronchi (due to asthma). I also managed to do percussion and auscultation on a patient with pneumothorax.

I also managed to see cases of congestive cardiac failure, psoriasis, leprosy, infective endocarditis and the best of all, Sydenham chorea. =D

I saw a man with ascites and his abdomen was really really…HUGE!!!

In IMU phase I, the simulated patients do not present with abnormal features and sometimes, we don’t even know how gallop rhythm sounds like.

I think clinical (real) cases are very important as a part of our medical training.

What say you? =D

Electives in Seremban Part V

2009-02-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

Ok. Here’s a tip. If you are a medical student, please do not stay in the ward from 12.30pm to 2pm. What is so special about this time slot?

It’s the visiting hour period!

There is once where I wanted to read the case presentation as soon as possible because I fear that the patient will be discharged soon and the case notes would then be filed up. So after my lunch, I quickly head to the ward to check for the case notes.

I was reading half way and got interrupted.

Stranger: Doctor doctor.(ah…it sounds nice to my ears) Can I ask you a few questions regarding my father’s condition? (Bla bla bla for the next 30 seconds)

(I decided to interrupt her)

Me: Sorry miss. I am not a doctor. I am just a medical student. If you want to see a doctor, please approach the nurse counter over there.

Stranger: Oh. Sorry.

(That women then walks over to the counter. Some conversation occurred and the patient was sent to the CCU ward)

(After the patient was transferred to the CCU ward, the women approach us again)

Stranger: Excuse me, (where is the doctor title??? haha) do you know where is the CCU ward?

Me: I am sorry miss. I do not know. (damn…I suck! Haha)

Stranger: Nevermind….(and she left…)

After that incident, I went back reading some case notes. Then, I suddenly noticed that the ward is full of family members of patients and many of them are looking at me. It felt like everyone there wants to approach me and ask me questions.

There are a few hot girls there too =P.

Sensing danger of people asking me questions and me embarrassing myself again, I quickly leave the ward, took out my lab coat and went for a drink.

Moral of the story: Visitors can’t differentiate between medical students and real doctors =P

Elective in Seremban Part IV

2009-02-13T20:14:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, I left Seremban Hospital early. Usually, I leave the hospital at 3pm or 4pm but on that particular day, I left the hospital early.

Basically, the story is like this.

Actually, my group planned to join the senior's case presentation (which includes bedside teaching) by a renowned lecturer; I'll address that doctor as Dr. X la. Well, since there is another separate group from my batch doing elective in the same hospital, I’ve decided to tell them that Dr. X would have case presentation on Friday at 9.30am (1st session) and 11.30am (2nd session)

Since we are tagging my friend’s friend (an MO in the paediatrics ward), we agreed upon taking the 2nd session and the other group take the 9.30am session.

On that day, I had a good start. My friend’s friend, Dr. A (not his real name) took my group for his ward rounds and teaching us some facts about diseases. I managed to see the St. Vitus dance, another name for Sydenham Chorea. Basically, Sydenham Chorea is one of the 5 major conditions in the modified Jones criteria for the diagnosis of rheumatic fever.

I also managed to tag a specialist in the same ward and learnt quite a few things as well. This specialist sure is a good one as she uses the hand-gel to wash her hands every time before she touches a patient (not every doctor does that).

Ok. The bad part of the day comes after the ward rounds.

At 11.15am, we made our way to the ward to attend the case presentation (cp) class. Upon arrival, we spotted the group at the far end of the ward. As I proceed nearer, I saw the other group there and I thought the first session hasn’t ended.

So, my group lingered around while waiting for the first session to finish. At about 11.45am, we started becoming restless and one of my group mates decided to ask the lecturer whether our group can join in.

Sadly, we were rejected. The lecturer told us that she has allowed the other group (about 4 people) to join and the whole group swelled to about 9 people. She couldn’t take in more because it’ll be too crowded then.

I was pissed when I heard that. Why on earth would the other group be there for that session? According to a senior friend who happens to be there, that session was the second session.

The answer came 15 minutes later. As the lecturer left the ward, the other group walked past us and explained to us. Apparently, they were rejected from joining the cp during the first session. So they lingered around and joined the 2nd session. After explanation, they left. No apology….nothing.

I was pissed at that time. They took our slot without informing us earlier, no apology from them, no desire to tell the lecturer the truth that we are supposed to join the cp for the 2nd session, no initiative to leave the cp and let us join in…no nothing!

I am disappointed with them. They are a bunch of freaking kiasu people trying to take every opportunity to learn new things even if it is at the expense of another person.

Why so kiasu? Damn it!

I was so pissed that I decide to leave the hospital and have lunch. Luckily, lunch was good and I felt better having my lunch.

If I were in their situation, here is what I’ll do. I’ll tell the lecturer that another group will be coming to tag her for the 2nd session and that we really hope to tag her for the first session. If she refused and I happen to join the 2nd session, I’ll tell the lecturer that the other group is supposed to be tagging her at this time and not me and I’ll leave the session.

Basically, the other group dishonoured their word.

Sien!

Elective in Seremban Part III

2009-02-09T09:55:00.000+08:00

Last Wednesday was kind of a boring day for me in Seremban Hospital. There aren’t much new cases and most of the old cases; I’ve already partially read their case notes.

I came across this old man with chronic liver disease. I wanted to examine him but his wife was a bit protective and refused to let us examine him.

There goes my chance to feel for ascites, to palpate a liver and spleen, to check for spider naevi and look at gynaecomastia.

Oh well, the old man was discharged the next day because his condition was improving.

There is another case of alleged drug overdose and apparently, that man looks like he’s dead. I didn’t get to see him gain consciousness and he was moved to another ward.

Thursday was interesting. We managed to clerk a patient who suffered from fluid overload due to congestive cardiac failure secondary to excessive fluid intake. It was an interesting case.

His history was informative but during physical examination, we could not find much abnormalities on him. The case notes stated that he has little basal crepitations but I couldn’t hear it. I probably need to see more cases before I can hear all these abnormalities.

In the afternoon, we joined a PBL session of the seniors conducted by Dr. James. I must say, he is a very good lecturer. He taught us the differences between dengue, malaria, typhus, typhoid and HIV seroconversion which all of them give us fever.

I understand about the dengue shock syndrome and dengue haemorrhagic fever within 5 minutes of his lecture. Basically, his lecture is 50% personal stories about his encounter with different cases and 50% hard facts.

Medicine is getting more and more interesting as day passes by.

Hard facts alone during lectures in Bukit Jalil are really boring at times. Its only fun when we get to see real patients and apply our hard-gain knowledge (easy for some).

I’m looking forward for better cases. =D

Elective in Seremban Part II

2009-02-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

I was posted to the medical ward in Seremban hospital. Technically, it is consider the busiest ward in the hospital. Here, you can see a variety of cases such as pleural effusion, MI, epilepsy, diabetes, infective endocarditis and lots more…..even cases like anxiety…!!!

First day there, I was quite lost. The management told me to report to the specialist in-charge but I couldn’t find one so I just randomly follow this Dr. X (MO). She seemed quite nice to her HO so I just tag around la.

Well, because she was very busy attending case after case, so I did not introduce myself. I felt that I learn more by tagging her compare to looking up case files myself.

Doomsday came the next day. All of sudden….

Dr. X: Who are you? Why are you observing us?
Me: Err………….
Dr. X: Yesterday, you are also observing me, tell me, who are you!
Me: I’m a medical student from IMU.
Dr. X: Next time, if you want to tag along, please introduce yourself and ask permission first.
Me: Ok. Sorry. Can I tag along?

(Pause few minutes…..)

Dr. X: Ok.
Me: Thank you.

Oo…first time I got scolded in front of patients. Haha. I tagged her for the next 30 seconds, and walked away. If I tag her any further, I scare I’ll get scolded further.

That’s a pretty good experience. When the MO was scolding me, all the HO kept quiet. None of them dare look at me. Hmm….guess there are either as afraid as I am or they are trying to avoid eye contact with the MO and get scolded as well for neglecting the case in hand.

Lesson learnt:

Be more respectful to seniors (MO and HO).
Equip yourself with sufficient knowledge before entering ward. If you blur blur, that’s it! GG!!! GL HF!!!!

Elective in Seremban...

2009-02-01T17:22:00.003+08:00

I'll be having my electives in Seremban Hospital starting tomorrow until who knows when.

Basically its just a posting which is self-initiated (can be called attachment also). The field which I'm going to be posted in is Internal Medicine but I'll be checking out surgery and other things la. Maybe I'll go check out radiology since my X-ray interpretation skills is kinda sucky. Hehe.

Come to think of it, this posting would be a lot better compared to my previous posting as I would be more well-equipped with CVS, RESPI, HAEMATO and GI knowledge.

Previously, when I was in sem 2, my hospital posting is basically to see what the nurses do (I don't think I learn much cause the nurse in-charge for my group was on leave) and also to take history of patients.

Then, my posting got a lot better where I was sent to KKB. There, I can do physical examination and history taking but there are no doctors to guide me other than the briefings I have at the end of the PE and History taking.

I hope tomorrow's posting would be a lot better. A doctor taking us on his rounds, firing questions at us (not scolding please...=D) and teaching us a bit on clinical skills would be desirable. =D

Besides, not to forget, I wanna take on Seremban seafood as well as Seremban siew pau on my visit there. Haha. I'll also move around the city to check on their attractions la... =D

Virus attack on the Chinese New Year day =D

2009-01-28T23:20:00.004+08:00

WARNING! VIRUS DETECTED!

Attention, Chun Yen! Some dangerous viruses detected in your system. Microsoft Windown XP files corrupted your personal data at the reach of anyone's hand. Internet history records and other personal information (passwords, chat sessions logs, adult materials) easily reachable.

Download protection software now!

Click OK to enable antispyware software. (Recommended)

Ok ok...chill guys. You're not infected with any virus while reading this post. (if you think you do, you must be ....IT NOOB!!!)

Anyway, my CNY is great! For starters, I was greeted with the above message (the one of virus) on the first day of CNY. Everytime I browse my folders, the above message pop up (alot with other messages such as "you've downloaded [porn]")

I have to admit, this time I was a bit careless and I got infected by this virus (a trojan). I was browsing google to look for a free Fritz 11 (a chess engine) for download when I stumble across this site that offers free download.

Stupidly, I downloaded the whole thing (this is like downloading virus for myself...damnit!).

At first, I thought it was a simple virus. So I scanned my whole computer with AVG 8 Free edition and I couldn't detect any problem.

Ok, I was pissed and I checked google for a solution. I clicked on this site http://untamedmind.wordpress.com/2008/07/09/how-to-fix-the-%E2%80%9Cattention-some-dangerous-trojan-horses-detected%E2%80%9D-virus/

According to the site, I need to download a software called FixIEDef to solve my problem. The software is one of a small size and I quickly downlaoded it and used it. The logs that resulted shows promising results.

Happily, I went back surfing and SHIT! The idiotic virus is STILL THERE.

I tried the same method thrice and redownloaded the latest edition and stuff and the problem is STILL THERE!

Ok, now, I was running out of ideas when I suddenly remembered that I have a spybot-search and destroy program in my computer. I quickly update it and scan my whole computer (it took a considerable period of time).

Well, the scan shows that my comp has LOTS of TROJANS. Ok, I quickly clear off all the trojans and was satisfied with the results.

BUT!!!! THE IDIOTIC TROJAN IS STILL THERE!!!!

Ok. Now, Google couldn't provide any answers for me. So I turned to Yahoo for help.

Then, I stumble upon this site. http://www.techsupportforum.com/security-center/virus-trojan-spyware-help/resolved-hjt-threads/328939-trackingcookie-help-internet-not-loading-successfully.html

It requires me to download a software called ComboFix. However, upon reading the description about ComboFix they have in their official site, I realized that I am not expert enough to use this powerful software.

Urgh...that's another dead end.

Well, finally, I stumbled upon this powerful site which recommended me to use SUPERAntiSpyware software. I quickly downloaded it, updated it and run some scans.

Well, apparently, there are still trojans in my computer that was not detectable by Spybot. I quickly delete the trojans and ran some experiment to check whether my problem is still there.

Surprisingly, the Trojan now is GONE!!!!

That's 4 hours of labour to solve the problem.

Ok...for those who wants to know where to download SUPERAntiSpyware to solve your problem, its available at http://www.superantispyware.com/

Push Pocket =D

2009-01-24T23:40:00.003+08:00

PUSH-POCKET IN KUALA LUMPUR

I am sure you all have heard of 'pick pocket'. A new trend 'push pocket'.

A few days ago a new type of crime has surfaced in town.

It goes something like this:- Somebody slips a hand-phone into your pocket, sometimes it could be just a wallet with an identity card and a few ringgit.

A few minutes later, the 'owner' comes up and confronts you, the 'thief '. He makes a big commotion that you stole his stuff.

You, caught unaware, are then pulled aside by the 'owner' for a settlement. You are intimidated and threatenedthat if you do not pay up the police will be brought in.

If you pay up, this 'owner' lets you go. If not, the police are brought in. Another strange thing is that there always seems to be a 'witness' to your 'theft'.

I am told this often happens to foreigners at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA) or even at LRT trains. Given that you're 'guilty until proven innocent' as far as the Malaysian police are concerned, I understand some poor people are in jail for these 'offences'.

At the KLIA, the 'owner' throws his hand-phone and wallet with the few ringgit notes into the luggage trolley of a just arrived passenger. The drama unfolds a few minutes later.

The real culprit has easily convinced our Malaysian police to arrest the real victim (if he has not paid up the 'settlement' demand). This is a very serious matter. This is another form of extortionists operating in broad daylight.

They are disgusting criminals who wi! ll do an ything to rob and steal. The sickening part of the whole scenario is that unless you pay the 'quoted settlement' money, they will put you in real trouble by calling the police.

The real culprit gets back his hand-phone and wallet but the real victim ( i.e. could be any one of us)is thrown into the police lock up and charged in court. So do be very careful, otherwise you may end up as a 'thief' as you have no way to prove your innocence.

Got this info from an e-mail =D

CNY shopping

2009-01-22T02:39:00.005+08:00

I only shop once a year and that's shopping for chinese NEW year.

Sometimes, shopping can be very sien. Let me show you why....

Case 1

Upon entering a shop, I'm greeted with "Hi Sir. Have a look. This is 50% discount, after discount very cheap de. This one you buy first shirt 20% discount, 2nd shirt 40% discount. Very worth it also."

They are very nice to me and somehow, psychologically, I would feel bad because I'm not buying anything and they are so nice to me....

Case 2

Now, I rarely go shopping.I usually wear an old t-shirt and an old pants to shop. Most of my stuff are years old.

I was walking around Sunway Pyramid and I do not know which shop is cheap and which shop is expensive. So I went into every shop that sell guy's clothings.

For those expensive shops, I kinda dislike their service.

Those who dressed like they are freaking rich would be attended immediately upon entering the shop and those who dressed up like they are freaking poor like me would be left wandering around the shop (this applies to several shops only....not all).

Argh, I can't afford those expensive clothings anyway.

Case 3

The price tags are always hidden.

When I approach a garment, the first thing would be, I would look at the price tag.

When I am looking at the price tag, the promoter would probably think of this.

"This guy ar, come in straight away look at price tag. If no money, then go work la. Come here for what? Waste my time..."

Case 4

Ok. This must be the worst thing.

I look around and found a suitable and nice piece of garment.

Me: "Hey sir, do you have size L for this shirt?"

Promoter: "I'm sorry, we have M and XL left. Would you want to try another piece of garment?"

Me: "Err...no thanks."

Multiply this incident by 3x.....and you'll understand why I so sien with shopping...

Case 5

The discount labels aren't put properly.

So I went and try a shirt (very nice and I really thought there is discount).

I passed the shirt to the promoter and I told her to hold on to it first.

Then I went and browse other garments and when I came back, she put back the shirt back into the original place.

Me: "Hey miss, the 2 shirts I wanted, where is it?"

Promoter: "Oh. Give me a minute." (she goes back to the display and take back the shirt out....I thought I told her to hold on to it. Not put back at the display section...)

Me: "Btw, these 2 shirt, its RM118 together right?"

Promoter: "No sir, the RM118 is for the plain shirt. This one no discount."

Me: (I went back to the display and showed her the discount label. And to my surprise, the discount label was actually BESIDE the shirt I wanted NOT ON TOP. I stood there for a while thinking). "I think, I'll just take one then...the black one"

Promoter: "Ok"

I felt a bit cheated though. But nevermind la, the shirt is really really nice.......

There are a lot of other sien experiences but I'll keep it for next time.

Conclusion: Shopping is very sien!!!

What will you do?

2009-01-17T12:06:00.001+08:00

As everyone knows, the general hospital in Kuala Lumpur has insufficient doctors.

Several reasons contributed to this.

1) The salary is unattractive. We study like a mad cow for 5 years, work almost 24 hours a day (plus on-call) and yet, we get probably about RM5000 salary only.

2) Working hours is too long. If I practice in private, I wouldn’t have to work day in day out and would have more time for my family. Practicing for the government kills off my family time.

3) Working hard in the government sector does not mean that you’ll get promoted because our government does not practice meritocracy. They look at the race requirement and their so-called quota.

There are of course a lot of other reasons but these 3 are considered the most important ones.

Ok. So there I was, a young lad with an appointment to see a dermatologist in the general hospital.

The appointment stated 9am.

I reached there at 8am, and waited until about 11am before I get my chance to see the dermatologist which lasted for about 10 minutes only.

For me, because I was so young, the 3 hours wait only makes me bored but it doesn’t frustrates me and besides, its just a dermatologist and not a cardiologist.

Ok, imagine a patient with an appointment with the cardiologist at 9am but only managed to see the cardiologist at 11am.

I bet the patient would be angry….very angry!

Here’s how a doctor normally treats the angry patient.

Patient walks in, slammed the door and refuses to sit.

Patient: Doctor, my appointment is at 9am, why am I waiting until 11am to meet you? Do you know I have chest pain? What if I just suddenly get a heart attack and drop dead?

Doctor: Don’t worry. You won’t die. And even if you do, it is not my fault. And there are too many patients, so you have to wait, that’s not my fault either. Now please have a sit.

Patient is super pissed now.

Patient: Eh, you think doctors so big ar? Talk so rude to patient. I sue you then you know!

Doctor: Errr….if I’m not big, why are you finding me in the first place? Now, please, I don’t have time for all these. Please sit down.

Patient finally agrees to sit but was freaking PISSED!!!

Doctor: So, you keep on saying you have chest pain. How long has it been?

Patient: DON’T KNOW!

Doctor: Does the pain spreads anywhere?

Patient: DON’T KNOW!

Doctor: Anything else you want to tell me?

Patient: DON’T KNOW!

Doctor: Ok. Thank you very much then. Please proceed to the pharmacy for your medication.

Patient got up, walked out and slammed the door.

So, dealing with angry patient is freaking tough right? Haha!

Just from the above scenario, we can see a lousy history and the rude character of most doctors.

But we can’t solely blame the doctors.

Some doctors are overworked that their threshold level is well reduced.

But we can’t expect patient to change their attitude.

To me, death is something scary and the patient has the right to be angry.

What will you do if the above situation happens to you?

Medicine never fails to interest me…haha.

Langkawi trip!

2009-01-16T15:41:00.005+08:00

Langkawi, the land of milky chocolates and cheap, cheap, FREAKING CHEAP alcohol.

Ok. Alcoholic drinks are even cheaper than a can of 100 plus!

That’s freaking CHEAP RIGHT????

My Ferrero Rocher only cost RM21.90 there in Langkawi compare to RM42.90 here in Kuala Lumpur.

Anyway, screw chocolates and alcohol.

We took at 3 days 2 nights trip to Langkawi.

Our flight ticket costs us RM105/person (return flight), car rental (Innova) is RM240 (3 days) and lodging at Langkasuka hotel is at RM90/person (2 nights)

On the first day, we visited the Telaga Tujuh (lousy attraction).

There are about 500 steps if I’m not mistaken for us to climb to reach this Telaga Tujuh area.

Nothing much to say about it.

If my bunch of friends aren’t there, that place is shit!

The rest of the first day was spent at the hotel where we played the beach volleyball (its really fun!) and swam like a duck in the swimming pool.

We also played this duck racing game. Haha.

At night we visited Kuah town for dinner and that’s roughly about it. End of day 1.

On day 2, we went to lots of beaches and did quite a number of activities.

This is the beach with black sand. Another super lousy attraction.

This is at the oriental village. The cable car is here but we didn’t go up because it is too expensive.

This is the underwater world. Not much stuff, but I managed to SHIT here TWICE. So, I think my money is worth it! Haha!

We also did parasailing on the 2nd day but we couldn’t take pictures because we were afraid that the water would hit the camera.

Our dinner that night got to be the best dinner but it costs us a whopping RM387!!!

I paid RM53 for my portion!!!!

But no doubt, its GOOD!

That’s about the 2nd day la.

Now move on to 3rd day!

Then we went for the island hopping package. It sucks totally and I would advise everyone who visit Langkawi not to go. It sucks so much!!!!

In Langkawi, I got into 2 road blocks and got conned twice.

The first con job was at the restaurant where each tiger prawn costs us RM38. That’s way way way expensive man.

The second con job was at the island hopping area. They said we can have snorkelling at one of the island but eventually after paying bla bla bla, the boatmen say snorkelling is not included in our package. SHIT!!!!

George and David left a mark on one of the island with their wholesome SHIT buried in the island. I think the next time I visit the island, I'll be able to see coconut trees sprouting on the site of their SHIT. Haha...

Overall, Langkawi really need a lot of improvement to become a cool place to visit.

If it is not a free duty island, I think Langkawi will become one of the lousiest attraction in Malaysia!

Anyway, I'll rate the tip 8/10 la because it was really fun with the group around!

Internal Medicine vs Surgery

2009-01-09T16:47:00.003+08:00

I received my results a while ago and I've officially passed my EOS3.

Here comes sem 4 =D

So, the next thing that comes into my mind today is, Internal Medicine vs Surgery.

Which field should I go for when I graduate?

Honestly speaking, since young, I've always wanted to be a cardiothoracic surgeon.

Why? Because it looks cool being able to cut someone up and then later stitch it back again. Hehe..

But after looking through few blogs by doctors, I've came to realized that there is another field which is very interesting and that is Internal Medicine.

Now, Internal Medicine deals with diagnosis.

Let me give you an example.

A patient comes in at the emergency department with wheezing, dyspnoea and a history of childhood asthma. The patient has been exercising intensely before this.

So, the first thing that comes to my mind, would be exercise-induced asthma attack.

Treatment? With my sem 3 knowledge, I think I'll give salbutamol to open up his airway.

So, internal medicine is pretty cool right?

Now compare that to surgery.

A patient comes in with acute appendicitis.

The pain is so unbearable that a quick surgery is required.

So the surgeon comes and does his job.

Half way removing the inflamed appendix, complication occurs.

He needs to assess the situation and fix the complication.

The operation finally ended after taking about 10 hours.

So, would you want surgery which require a lot of technical skills or would you want internal medicine which requires a lot of mental skills?

I still have a long way to go and much stuff to think about before I can arrive at my final decision.

May God guide me =D

He does His miracles so well!

2009-01-04T00:42:00.004+08:00

EOS3, defined as Eternity Of Suffering is finally OVER!!!

But this post-exam period is unlike any other post-exam that we ever had.

In the past, post-exam means movies, expensive dinners and DOTA till the next morning.

This time, we went to church. Cool right?

I mean, church is even more ENJOYING than movies, dinners or DOTA.

If you don't believe me, then come join me to DUMC to experience yourself.

5pm to 7pm every Saturday.

You can even drop me a message if you need help to get to my church =D

Anyway, let me tell you my story.

COPD, defined as chronic obstructive pulmonary disease is one of the most important pathology that affect smokers and it is so common that I think every medical student should know about it.

Multiple myeloma, a rare blood disorder but nevertheless, it is also crucial to know this pathology.

And chronic bronchitis (part of COPD) and multiple myeloma came out for my exam today in MEQ.

I did not have any lectures on the pathology of COPD and on multiple myeloma.

All I have was an old Dr. Thani's note of COPD and PBL (problem-based learning) note for multiple myeloma.

Being me, I do not like to read things that are not inside my lectures.

So it came to pass that, this incident happened.

I was hanging out in my housemate's room last night until 10pm and suddenly, he flashed out his PBL note of multiple myeloma.

Being Mr. Boring, I took the note and read in my room because I was just super bored!

Another incident.

I do not know why but I included the old Dr. Thani's COPD note in my respiratory system revision.

Few days back, I saw this word alpha-1-antitrypsin deficiency in my cirrhosis lecture note and I went and ask my housemate about it.

He told me that he encounter that word in the COPD lecture note by Thani.

So being Mr. Curious, I took the COPD note and read it again but very briefly.

Both incidents happened only a few days before exam.

Truly when the questions come out and everything seemed to familiar, I immediately praise God in my heart!

God's does His miracles so well that I really am amazed!

Thank you God!

When things get tough, that's when a man differentiates himself from a boy.

And when things get tough, that's when I as a Christian differentiates myself from other non-believers.

Medical exams are not easy stuff.

But being a Christian, I put all my faith unto the Lord and I pray and pray and pray for Lord's blessings upon me so that all GLORY will be HIS.

Indeed, He has shown me today that He is always beside me.

And He took away my stress and I was feeling great when everyone else around me started to panic and feeling stressed.

Praise God!

An experience of higher level OSPE

2009-01-02T18:35:00.003+08:00

OSPE, defined as objective structured practical examination is one of the component of IMU's exam format.

24 stations in total with 5 minutes each station.

If you have watched amazing race, then it would be easy for you to understand this.

You reach your station and the chief gives you a short briefing because he sounds the alarm to signify the start of the race.

You start at your station and you have 5 minutes to complete the task.

When the bell rings, you'll move to another station beside your current station and proceed on to your second task.

This would continue on until you finish the 24 stations.

All answers to all the challenges are to be written on the question paper that you have been provided at the start by the chief.

There is 2 rest stations along the way presumably for you to rest your dyspneic mind which is probably running a marathon already.

At the end of the stations, your question paper is collected and you will be judged in a week's time.

Hehe...so that's basically what's OSPE all about la.

Well, today was OSPE day. Its Of Short and Pain Experience (OSPE) la.

Respiratory system was kind of hard because there are certain pictures that look like carcinomas but they are actually caseous mass (ok, I got big time wrong for guessing carcinoma).

Then microbiology have viruses and stuff (...they always look the same to my untrained eyes)

My lecturer always say, this is inflammation, this is granuloma, this is Marburg virus, this is this that is that...bla bla bla.

But to me, that is a picture, and it doesn't make sense to me =D

Hope I can train up the eye of Beh soon...just as how the eye of patho lecturer is trained up =D

A lot of ppl came out disappointed today after OSPE.

In relationship, only 1 or both sides get hurt.

In OSPE, you can have the whole team getting hurt.

I chuckle and thank God for He has been faithful and very helpful indeed.

Thank you GOD!!!

"Super sweat"

2008-12-31T18:50:00.003+08:00

EOS 3 is still going on for this week. I'll just take a 5 minutes break la to type this post....

Ok, as you all know, I'm a Christian. So, as a Christian, I would of course love to evangelise and share the gospel with my friends through "good and acceptable means".

So yesterday night before my 2nd OSCE exam today, I had a chat with my friend (Ms A = fakename to protect her identity)

Ah Beh (Me): Hey Ms A, how's life? How's preparation for OSCE tomorrow?

Ms A: Life sucks la. New year coming and still have to study. OSCE ar? Hopefully can pass la. Stress leh

Ah Beh: Eh, after exam ar, can I call you out ar?

Ms A: Go where?

Ah Beh: (thinks carefully and...) Go church. Want? Very good de my church. Very good sermons!

Ms A: CEH!!! I thought go where. If you're my BF, I'll GO la. If you're not my bf, I'll CONSIDER.

Ah Beh: "speechless" (WHAT THE HELL WOULD I BEING HER BF GOT TO DO WITH CHURCH???)

Then after that,

Ah Beh: Okla, I offer to fetch you to church and back home after church. Convenient right?

Ms A: You sure? My house is in Bandar Utama leh...

Ah Beh: (I turned on the calculator. 60km multiply by RM0.30 = RM18.) Eh, quite far leh. I drive there drive back....too far leh. How about you take LRT or something?

Ms A: Err..see first la....

Ah Beh: ......

Why is it so easy to ask someone out for countdown (for example) but so hard to ask someone out for church....hmm....

The question, you all find your own answers la =D

Happy New Year guys!!!!

What is Christmas to you?

2008-12-24T13:09:00.002+08:00

"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children.” Ephesians 5:1

I can still remember my dad standing there, coat on and hat in hand on Christmas afternoon asking me, “Joe, do you want to come with me?” His question made me uncomfortable because I knew I should say yes, but being deep into playing with my Christmas presents, going with him was not my idea of a great way to spend Christmas afternoon.

My idea of Christmas was a time to celebrate Christ’s birth by giving and getting gifts, eating some of Mom’s all-time best cooking, and lots of play time with my new toys!
My dad liked all that kind of stuff too. But every year he had something else in mind. He knew that Christmas was more than a celebration of Christ’s birth. For him, the spirit of Christmas had a deeper meaning. He knew that the highest form of honoring Jesus is more than celebration—it’s imitation.

In fact, seeing Christmas as merely celebration can have a selfish bent to it. It can end up being primarily about days off from work, parties, family, friends, games, football, gifts, and lots of great food. But imitation—not celebration—pays a higher compliment to the one whose life we celebrate.

For Jesus, Christmas was not warm, convenient, or comfortable. In our modern-day materialized blur of Christmas, we must keep reminding ourselves that the birth of Jesus put into motion the central act of God’s redemptive plan, and it came at a cost. Not only did Jesus temporarily relinquish the glorious privileges of heaven, He ultimately gave His life on a blood-stained cross where His sinless body bore the weight of my sin—and yours. Jesus presented our world with a costly redemptive gift. Which is precisely why my dad was on his way out the front door.

His mission? To visit an elderly widow who lived down the street. With no children and no family, she spent every holiday alone. And every Christmas my dad, in the midst of celebration, gave the gift of himself, sharing a few moments of companionship to help ease her lonely heart.
I learned a valuable lesson from my dad. Around all of our lives there are people who long for a touch from heaven through some caring, even sacrificial, act of love on their behalf. Who are the people you could call on Christmas day? Check your party lists. Is there someone who will go nowhere if not invited by you?

Indelibly etched on my memory are those two or three times when I stood up from my toys, grabbed my coat, put my hand in Dad’s, and walked down the street to spend an hour imitating Christ’s gift of Himself.

This year, let’s do more than celebrate Christ. Let’s honor Him by imitating the grace of His selfless and sacrificial love for us.

YOUR JOURNEY…
1) What are some ways you can imitate Christ this Christmas? Read Ephesians 5 for a list of ideas.

2) My dad’s imitation of Christ made a big impact on me as a kid. What can you do to set an example for the young people or young believers in your life? If you were to say, like Paul, “I urge you to imitate me” (1 Corinthians 4:16), what kinds of Christlike qualities would others see in your life to imitate?

3) We’re in the final countdown to Christmas. Narrow your ideas down to one action point and then, as the commercial says, “Just do it!” Who knows, your act may make this a Christmas to remember

Written by Joe Stowell
From: http://www.rbc.org/bible-study/strength-for-the-journey/2008/12/23/daily-message.aspx

I find this article very interesting and I wish to share it with all of you.

In the midst of preparing for my exams which is next week, I won't be celebrating Christmas like the past years. No reunions, no church, no gifts etc.

But in this Christmas, I have a present to share with everyone.

The gift of Christ! =D

I hope the above article touches everyone's heart as it did touched mine. After reading it, I did something which I thought I am not prepared for it. And yes, I did it. Anyway, no details abt it =P

Haha, back to study...Merry Xmas to EVERYONE =D

Biological clock disturbance...

2008-12-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

The power of Neslo.

I drank one cup yesterday. Eventually, I managed to study up to 7am....

Caffeine is strong! Haha...especially on people like me with upregulated receptors =D

Sien....

2008-12-16T03:53:00.001+08:00

Its 4am in the morning now.
CSU is at 10am.
And I have to finish this killer note and get some freaking sleep!!!

Life ROCKS =D

Busy

2008-12-15T15:10:00.001+08:00

Exams is about 2 weeks from now.
There goes Christmas and New Year =D

Oh well, I'm super busy these days. Won't be posting till exam's over =D

The Bukit Antarabangsa Tragedy...

2008-12-09T19:43:00.003+08:00

In a frantic attempt to save his wife, a 31-year-old executive was forced to dig through the earth with his bare hands until his fingers bled.

He felt a sense of relief when rescue personnel arrived at the scene. But to his horror, they refused to help him, apart from throwing him a spade.

However, Selangor police chief Khalid Abu Bakar came to the defence of the rescue personnel, citing their lack of training as a reason.

On the same note, he explained that some rescue personnel who are untrained are not allowed to conduct certain rescue operations.

"You don't expect an ambulance driver to save a buried victim. He is not trained, so if we request untrained personnel for help and they refuse, we shouldn't blame them.

"This is because their lives are in danger too. I think we should respect their decision. To dig and save someone, one has to be trained. For an untrained person, it's a very dangerous task," he said.

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Above is quoted from Malaysiakini.com

So Mr. Khalid, if you are buried under something and I happen to see you, I should stay at the side and not help you because I am not trained to do so. Right?

Since the rescue personnel aren't trained to do all these stuff, why on earth are they carrying a spade? And why on earth we call them rescue personnel? Stand and watch is counted as rescue?
Is digging for something really that hard?

I think Mr. Khalid here should quit his job right now because of all the lousy comments above.

And btw, have Mr. Khalid attended any BS classes? BS is not bull shit but behavioural sciences class.

Telling the affected family that the rescue personnel are innocent in this matter, will that not only aggravate their feelings? Could you at least say sorry to the affected family and promise them that you'll find out the truth?

I advise Mr. Khalid to reenter the police training academy and take up some classes on management and behavioural science. That would do him good =D

Tagged

2008-12-08T13:22:00.003+08:00

Tagged ... this is troublesome so I've decided not to tag anyone =P

Oh well,

5 top wish list:

1) God's presence to be with me and everyone around me =D

2) My family and friends to be in the pink of health =D

3) To win someone's heart =D...this is secret =P

4) To pass my EOS 3 with flying colours :)

5) My friends and I would have more time to fellowship =D

Haha. That's about it.

I'll make a 5 random wishlist for Christmas =D

1) I want a grand piano =D

2) I want a new guitar to replace my current soon-to-die guitar =)

3) I want a trip to relax myself after exams...preferrably a beach trip (I'm going Langkawi =D)

4) I want a book (the Brisingr) to accompany my trip =D

5) Lastly but most importantly, I want her heart =D...I wonder who...LOLZ

Okla, enjoy...I have CVS, RESPI, HAEMATO and GI to catch up. 3 more weeks to go =D

Greed

2008-12-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

"Do not be deceived; God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction;
the one who sows to please the spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life." -Galatians 6:7,8-

Greed.

Who doesn't want money?

If a police stops you and give you a summon, would you bribe him with RM10 (that's how cheap police can be nowadays) or pay the RM300 summon?

Pay the RM10 and you'll please your sinful nature and reap destruction.

Pay the RM300 and you'll please the spirit and reap eternal life.

Difference is, if you pay RM10, you'll save RM290.

If you pay the RM300, you'll most probably stop making the same mistake because the price is definitely high. You'll be more cautious and obey rules.

If you pay the RM10, you'll most probably think that for any mistake you make on the road, you just have to flash out RM10 and the police will bow down to you and go away quietly. You'll end up making so much mistakes that if you count the price that you eventually pay, it'll be probably RM3000.

I'll pay the RM300. NO TO BRIBERY!!!

Run to WIN!

2008-12-02T13:26:00.002+08:00

When you make following Christ your consuming desire, your life will change in extraordinary ways.

When I was a student at Wheaton College in the early 1940's, I ran track. At that time, the world’s indoor mile champion, Gil Dodds, worked out with us. I can still remember when he came over while I was stretching my legs and slapped me on the bottom, saying, “Come on, Howie, let’s go around.” It was the first time we had met.

While going around the track, I found myself four or five paces in front of Gil, running as fast as I could and thinking, “If you’re going to be the world’s indoor mile champion, you ought to run a little faster.”

When we finished the first lap, he slapped me across the bottom again and said, “Come on, only three more laps to go.” I thought I was going to die. I hadn’t understood that he was planning to go around again.

I have followed Christ now for 56 years, and I have found that becoming a disciple of Christ is not like running a 100-yard dash. Christian discipleship is a marathon that spans an entire lifetime. You determine your success in this race not merely by your entrance but by your endurance; not by whether you finish the first lap ahead, but by whether you finish the whole race.

We tend to think that living the Christian life is a dream, rather than a discipline. But there’s a war on. The bullets are real, and the casualties are high. Like running a race, following Christ involves discipline, as well as endurance. The apostle Paul learned this secret, and he tells us about it in 1 Corinthians 9:24-27:

“Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win. And everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we are imperishable. Therefore, I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I buffet my body and make it my slave, lest possibly, after I have preached to others, I myself should be disqualified.”

Paul exhorts us to run to win. Everyone in a track meet runs, but only one wins. As disciples we all run, and we can all win. Paul did not run to gain salvation, but to gain rewards from service. He did not fear losing his salvation but losing his sense of accomplishing what he was called to do.

Because Paul says in this passage that he spent all of his life summoning others to the race, how tragic if, at the end of the race, he should be disqualified. And the fact that he was a great missionary leader, a brilliant theologian, a writer of many of the letters that comprise our New Testament, did not exempt him from the possibility of being disqualified.

Like Paul, in order to run to win we must develop a winner’s mentality. We must understand that Christ is the One calling us to this race. The “winner’s mentality” is simply the confidence that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.

From 1976 to 1984, I was the chaplain for the Dallas Cowboys, where I learned incredible lessons at the hands of a number of coaches in the National Football League. Mike Ditka, Dan Reeves, Joe Gibbs, Tom Landry, and others, have said to me before a game, “Howie, I’m scared to death of this one. My team is going to play not to lose.” They tell me playing halfheartedly not to lose, instead of playing wholeheartedly to win, is the fastest way to defeat. And in the Christian life, halfhearted efforts instead of wholehearted obedience leads to defeat.

I know of only two kinds of Christians: Those who say, “I can,” and those who say, “I can’t.” They’re both right. Our view of who Christ is determines which group we belong to. Do we view Him as being weak and distant, or do we believe that He has made His power readily available to us? We can’t run this race in our own strength, but we can through the strength that Christ gives us.

Winning is not determined until the end of the race. We may run those first few laps well, exhibiting traits of a disciple of Christ during those early stages of the Christian life, and maybe even into the mid years. But as we grow older in our faith, we tend to seek a rocking chair in which to sink our weary bones at the very time we ought to be most active for the Savior. Paul tells us to continue to run to win; there is no place in the Christian life for a retirement mentality.

In verse 25, Paul compares becoming a disciple to participating in the Isthmian Games, then held every two years and second only in prominence to the Olympics. Each athlete had to undergo strict training involving a rigorous diet, disciplined habits and the supervision of a judge who could disqualify a competitor at any point. To compete in these ancient games, no halfhearted effort would do.

Likewise, becoming a follower of Christ involves self-denial. Sometimes we may have to deny ourselves the good things, so that we may choose the better things. Athletes who expect to win have to train diligently. The only place where success comes before work, is in the dictionary.

Paul compares himself to the runner and to the boxer. As a runner, he concentrates on effort. As a boxer, he conserves energy. The phrase he uses, “beating the air,” describes a man in the ring who has sustained a severe blow to the head. The boxer is still going through the motions as a result of his training, but he’s not landing any blows. That’s what you call activity without accomplishment.

Paul wants every blow to count for the Savior. When we read the Book of Acts, we see that the pagans stayed up all night asking, “How in the world are we going to control this thing?” Today the Christians stay up at night, biting their nails, asking, “How in the world are we going to relate to this kind of society?” So Paul says, “I beat my body black and blue. I make any sacrifice. I make it my slave.”

Becoming Christ’s disciple always comes back to living a disciplined life. I ran across a fascinating piece about Audubon, the great naturalist, who was willing to undergo discomfort in order to learn the world of birds. His biographer writes:

“He counted his physical comforts as nothing compared with the success of his work. He’d rise at midnight, night after night, to go out into the swamps to study the habits of certain night hawks. He crouched motionless for hours in the dark and fog, feeling himself well rewarded if after weeks of waiting, he had secured one additional fact about a single bird.”

During one summer he went day after day to the bayous of New Orleans to observe a shy water fowl. He would have to stand almost to his neck in nearly stagnant water, scarcely breathing while countless poisonous moccasin snakes swam past his face ....

“‘It was not pleasant,’ he said as his face glowed with enthusiasm. ‘But what of that. I have a picture of a bird.’”

If Audubon could do that for the picture of a bird, what can we do to further the kingdom of God?

Paul’s instructions are clear to us. But what about the implementation? What does running to win mean for the Christian community in the last decade of the 20th century? First, we must become distinctively different. We’ve got to make sure that the world does not squeeze us into its mold. The more we become like our culture, the less we are going to influence people for Christ.

We need to become more radical. How many times does the Bible tell us to quit living like the pagans? It’s God’s will that we should be holy, not happy; that we should avoid sexual immorality; that each of us learn how to control his own body in a way that’s holy and honorable, not in passionate lust like those who do not know God, and like some of those who say they do.

If you want to be the most distinctive human being on planet earth, ask God to keep you clean. You will be a breed apart in your generation. During my last year with the Cowboys, we saw about ten people come to Christ, and every single one of them because of the quality marriage that middle linebacker Bob Breunig (now retired) has with his wife, Mary. Our society needs people who will provide another role model, an alternate lifestyle.

Second, you will have to be more disciplined and less defensive. One of my great concerns for the Church is that too many of us are too sensitive to criticism. If you like to be liked, you are never going to run to win. Being criticized is an occupational hazard in becoming a disciple.

Do you know what bothers me most about America? Evangelical Christians just aren’t that significant. When you begin to make an impact on your community, whatever the ministry, you can be sure you will be criticized. The devil will let loose everything he has on you, in the form of criticism from others.

Third, make becoming a disciple the overriding purpose of your life. Quit spending so much time on secondary activities that matter so little. Life is like a coin: You can spend it any way you want, but you can only spend it once.

Live like a disciple of Christ.

Run to win.

Go for the gold.

Live and die with total fulfillment because you’ve invested your life in a cause that will outlast you.

By Howard Hendricks (Available from Cru.Comm)

I find this article very interesting. It's taken from my CG's blog - http://vccgimu.blogspot.com/

Enjoy!

Uncertainties. Help me!

2008-11-30T20:37:00.003+08:00

100kmph all the way from KL to Bukit Jalil.
That's speeding for me.
I cut here and there just like the whole highway is mine.
I'm a bit confused.
What kind of feeling am I feeling now?
Exam stress? Or am I still angry about the past?

God,
Hallowed be your name.
You really have to help me go through this.
It felt like exam stress + anger about the past.
Please send your holy spirit into me and guide me through this.
Please quench my anger and take away my stress.
I want to be holy in my thoughts, actions and in my lifestyle.
Please forgive my sins as I forgive those who trespassed against me.
Please deliver me from evils and temptation.
Father, I need you!
Amen.

Fragile

2008-11-29T01:59:00.002+08:00

Its 2am in the morning now. My emotions wasn't very stable a few hours ago. I was angry, sad, stressed up etc. I tried to focus on my lecture note, but it just didn't work out. I felt lonely and afraid. I quickly pray a simple prayer for God's protection against all these negative feelings.

I wish, the past memories can just leave my mind. Past events haunt me whenever I am relaxed, doing nothing.

No, I'm not going to drink and get drunk and forget everything. That's an idiotic way.

I'm gonna face my history and confront it with peace and love. Sounds childish? Whatever.

I pray that God will be with me through thick and thin =D

PAS's unwise suggestion!

2008-11-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

" The PAS-led Kelantan government has already banned gambling, restricted the sale of alcohol and requires men and women to queue in separate lines at shops.However, since it was trounced in the 2004 general election, PAS has been trying to revamp its hardline image in order to garner support from the non-Muslim communities."

"Selangor PAS intended to demand a ban on the sale of alcohol at 7-11 outlets, mini-markets and coffee shops"

Above passages are quoted from Malaysiakini.com.

PAS. I wonder what they are up to. I really don't know where their brains are. In order to solve problems, common sense tell us that we must act on the core. So why are teenagers drinking alcohol heavily these days? It must have something to do with their up-bringing right? Why not PAS look into those matters?

Instead of banning this, banning that, please, look at the core problems first. If you can bring the young generation in the correct way, I am pretty sure that they won't start smoking or drink alcohol.

Talking about smoking, isn't smoking bad too? Why PAS didn't ban smoking as well?

Smoking pollutes the environment, kills one slowly, cause the healthcare millions every year to treat the smokers and worst of all, these school kids will do anything to get their a puff of their cigarettes. I know my school has smelly toilets because those smokers would smoke in the toilet to hide from teachers. So, doesn't all these shows that smoking is bad?

Come on PAS. Give me a reason why you shouldn't ban smoking. I know whichever party who tries to ban smoking will not get any support. Do you have enough courage to ban smoking...mr PAS?

Smoking will cause addiction. Alcohol will cause addiction. You put both alcoholics and smokers without their stuff for a few days and both of them have high chances to cause troubles. So...by trying to ban alcohols and not cigarettes, isn't that selective persecution?

Queuing separately for boys and girls. I want to ask the rationale of that. I don't see any problems queuing together. I think the only one with problem with queuing together is PAS. Hmm, come to think of it, imagine that me and my friends put our things together in the same trolley. So when we want to pay, we have to take out everything and pay separately? This is ridiculous. It waste time, energy and effort.

Governments are supposed to benefit us or to make us suffer? Think about it PAS...

~Life~

2008-11-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

It has been ages since I last updated my blog. I was quite busy actually TRYING to study =P. Everyday, I finish 1 lecture or 2. Its too slow knowing that my exams are on the 30th of December. I really got to buck up by now. I’ll try to aim like 4 lectures tomorrow.

These few days I’ve been jogging regularly. But I couldn’t make it to 10 rounds like I used to do last time. I have to really buck up here as well. =P

Well, life is normal these few weeks post-summative and pre-EOS. I enjoy my sleeps, my breaks, my meals and my jogs. Occasionally, I’ll play the piano as entertainment. As usual, days seemed a bit quicker when you know there is an exam coming soon.

Since I’ll be working myself to the maximum this time, I’ll plan a great breakaway for myself after the exams =D. So many things in my mind right now actually. And most of them aren’t related to studies.

Items in my mind:

1) Financial crisis
2) Malaysia politics – the inefficient government we are having now
3) My January holiday destination

Man, I really should be more focused on my exams =P

Bible Verses

2008-11-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

I find this scripture quite meaningful.

1 Samuel 16

Samuel Anoints David

1 The LORD said to Samuel, "How long will you mourn for Saul, since I have rejected him as king over Israel? Fill your horn with oil and be on your way; I am sending you to Jesse of Bethlehem. I have chosen one of his sons to be king."

2 But Samuel said, "How can I go? Saul will hear about it and kill me." The LORD said, "Take a heifer with you and say, 'I have come to sacrifice to the LORD.'

3 Invite Jesse to the sacrifice, and I will show you what to do. You are to anoint for me the one I indicate."

4 Samuel did what the LORD said. When he arrived at Bethlehem, the elders of the town trembled when they met him. They asked, "Do you come in peace?"

5 Samuel replied, "Yes, in peace; I have come to sacrifice to the LORD. Consecrate yourselves and come to the sacrifice with me." Then he consecrated Jesse and his sons and invited them to the sacrifice.

6 When they arrived, Samuel saw Eliab and thought, "Surely the LORD's anointed stands here before the LORD."

7 But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

If we judge others only by their outer appearance, we might miss the wonderful surprise of what’s in their heart. — Bill Crowder =)

~Forensic Heroes 2~

2008-11-20T12:48:00.003+08:00

4 days have passed and in these 4 days, I have finished watching 30 episodes of 'Forensic Heroes 2'.

Frankly speaking, I love the romance story in this series and it does give me some ideas in how to pamper my future gf =D. I admire the hardwork shown by the team in this series to crack cases and I am fazed by the usage of high-tech equipments to solve cases.

'Witnesses can lie but material evidence such as DNA can't'.

I wonder if our police force can be as efficient as the team portrayed in the movie. Our police may say that the team in the movie is fictional, but one thing for sure, our police forces must aspire to reach that kind of level instead of complaining. =D

I'm as good as dead cause my EOS 3 is around the corner =(. Haha...I shouldn't be watching anything now....

Worship 2008!

2008-11-18T10:37:00.002+08:00

Yeap! Worship 2008! conference has just ended. Spanning from 14/11 to 16/11, a total of 5 sessions and a worship evening was conducted.

This conference was conducted by Pastor Glenn Packiam. He's an associate pastor at New Life Church and the Director of New Life School of Worship in Colorado Springs, Colorado. He is also an associate pastor and worship leader for the New Life's college ministry -The Mill- and was one of the founding worship leaders for the Desperation Band.

Ok. Enough about his credentials. Basically the theme for the conference is 'Resonate: A People Resounding God's Glory'.

This is my 2nd time attending a conference and again, 50% of my body just wouldn't cooperate. On the Friday's session, I started yawning and yawning as if there's no tomorrow. Probably it's because the lack of main points by the speaker, I felt it kind of hard to focus on what he said. I wonder if people around me noticed =P. Haha. Saturday's sessions was alright as I had enough sleep the night before.

Basically, let me share about what I have gotten from this conference in a brief summary.

Basically, do you ever feel that sometimes, worshipping God is a chore instead of something you really enjoy? Well, sometimes I can admit that I do. Now the question is, what's stopping you? How come some people in church can dance and celebrate before God during worship, and some people just give a bored face and start yawning during worship? That's for you guys to figure out the problem and solve it.

Then the pastor went on to talk about our irreplaceable role. A guitarist on stage can be replaced by other guitarist. Anyone holding any positions can be replaced. But there is one thing that can never be replaced! That is our love to God. I will get old one day and be replaced by a young stronger youth but there is one thing he or she couldn't replace, that is my LOVE to God. =D

Hmm...as I've said, there aren't many main points given during the conference and I'm left clueless at times by the pastor. Anyway, I've attended only 4 sessions and that's about what I remembered learning =D.

Anyway, I may be involved this Friday in some church event. If I go for it, it will be my first time ushering people in church. Hopefully, God will be with me. =D

Overall, I would give the conference a 7 out of 10. The songs was great though =D

Life in KKB hospital

2008-11-13T18:41:00.000+08:00

On the 10th to 12th of November, I was posted to Kuala Kubu Bharu (KKB) hospital to do my rotations. We went to KKB on the 9th of November because classes will start at 9am on the 10th.

Ok, cut off the details, here comes the important points =). The hostel is dirty, not much water, full of mosquitoes and there are no nearby restaurants. For our dinner, we have to walk 15 minutes to town to get food. There is only one good Chinese restaurant there, which is called ‘ninety eight restaurant’. Well, lucky Brian drove there and he drove us out for dinner on the 2nd and 3rd day. We walked on the first day though =).

On the second day, there was no water in our hostel and the reason is because we didn’t turn on the tap outside the house. How stupid we can be at times =). Ok. Enough about the hostel conditions.

Basically KKB hospital is a district hospital. There aren’t many patients in the wards and the wards aren’t big either. Most of the patients there have dengue fever and chikungunya viral infection.

Our task there is simple. In the morning, we have to clerk the patient and do a physical examination on the patient. In the afternoon, there is bedside teaching and we are dismissed at about 4.30pm.

One thing I would like to complain is the food pricing. Few spoons of rice with an egg and one cup of hot milo and they charge us about RM3.50. For my lunch, there is once I took one fish and one chicken (they don’t have variety there, only chicken and fish) together with one hot milo, they charge me RM7.50. That price is way too expensive. The chicken is so small and the rice is so little. 2 meals in the canteen and I’m almost broke =(.

For our morning routines, most of the patients are cooperative when we try to clerk and do a physical examination on them. We managed to practice our skills on real patients in KKB instead of simulated patients in IMU. We had a hypertension, chikungunya and a pneumonia case. I managed to hear a ronchi on the pneumonic patient =).

In addition, I also managed to witness child delivery, the physiotherapy unit and the biochemical laboratory.

Ok. I want to confess something here. I love working in the hospital. I think I will seriously enjoy being a doctor in the future. It is so wonderful seeing my patients from super sick on admission to being strong again when I left the hospital on Wednesday. In the hospital, most of the patients are lonely because their relatives can only visit them at certain hours of the day. Sometimes they are so lonely that they just sleep and sleep and sleep.

I clerked a Chinese patient on the 2nd day in KKB. Usually doctors spend roughly 3 minutes on each patient. However, because we were required to take a full long history together with doing a full general examination, we end up spending hours on the same patient. So, as I was doing my stuff, the patient began to tell me about his life. He told me about his past, the stuff that he has been through and how he landed up with this disease. By hearing his story alone, I felt that I’ve did something good for the patient. He relate to me how lonely it was being in the ward, staring at the spinning fan everyday. I know in my heart that, if I can’t do much for the patient, a simple communication would make my patient feel better in his heart.

On my last day in KKB, before I left the hospital, I went back to visit my patient again. That day, when I visited him, he looked stronger and was going to be discharged soon. The feeling of seeing a patient being cured is just so fun. A day ago, he barely able to do much and now, he’s strong and was able to talk and talk and talk =).

I guess, that’s what doctors are hungry for. They derive satisfaction from seeing their patients being able to walk and run again =).

Peace!

2008-11-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

Summative is over.

End of Semester exam is on the 30/12, 31/12, 2/1 and 3/1.

Posting is next week for three days in KKB hospital.

A never ending study life.

I want to thank God for being with me all this while. It is not by might nor power that I managed to go this far but by the SPIRIT of the LORD!

These few days before summative, time passes so fast that I felt I've missed a lot of things in life. Every lecture note I read, I take an average of 2 hours. I read an average of 5 lecture notes a day and my day is finished.

There was once when I was lying down on my bed thinking about my life, I began realising that I've missed a lot of things that I usually do. I just felt like driving up to the seaside with my loved one and enjoy the breeze with a coconut drink =D I felt like driving up to Genting Highland and take a night walk at the park enjoying the coolness at the top of a hill =D

But I'm glad, I'm still surviving! Thank you God, thank you family and friends, thank you everyone who've been supporting me all these while!

For those who are always rushing....ever stop and think about what you love about life?

Summative....

2008-10-26T03:09:00.002+08:00

My summative is coming. It'll be on the 6th of November and I am still far from finishing my notes. Haha. Pressure is building up daily but I am handling it well =D

In fact, I shouldn't be here blogging. Haha. But I feel like sharing a little bit about God's word to those who are struggling in the midst of exams.

"But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint" Isaiah 40:31

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

Everyone likes stories right? So I'll share a short story here.

This story happened when I was sitting for my AS exam (part of Alevels) back in 2006. As a top student from Victoria Institution, there is this thing inside me (technically called kiasuness) which would not allow me to get anything lesser than A. Getting A isn't easy and it requires a lot of hard work.

So there I was, labouring day and night trying to mug up everything that is on the notes. My life is basically, lecture, study, dinner, study and then sleep. It wasn't easy for me at that time. In addition, I was in the best class and everyone around me are equally very smart students. All these peer pressure really forced me to exhaust myself to the max. Sometimes, I feel that I am going through all these shit alone. I have to compete with the brainies around me with my own strength.

About 1 month before the AS exam, my friends, Linda and Eileen brought me to the 'city discipleship presbyterian church' which is located near Taylor's College. It is through this church, my faith unto the Lord grew stronger.

As the scripture says, "for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go", God literally carried me through all these hardships. He took away my stress, He gave me strength to study and understand better, He gave me inner peace and He gave me good results at the end of the day.

So peeps, I urge you guys to trust in the LORD, that He'll be with us through thick and thin. He'll take away our struggles, so do pray often! Remember, God is our heavenly Father. He WON'T let us fall because we are His sons and daughters. Amen! =D

What makes you happy?

2008-10-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

What makes people happy?
What makes you happy?

Presents? Big cars? First class flights? Holidays?

Some people whom I know says that shopping makes them happy. Some guys told me that driving a mercedes Benz to school and impress all the girls makes them happy. Some even told me that having a holidays makes them happy.

Well, whatever people say, let me share with everyone about what makes ME happy.

In medical school, you have to study consistently or else you will lose out. You have exams all the time and your brain is probably overexhausted that you sometimes feel like dying. You are subjected to humiliation, scolding and intimidation by your lecturers. You have peers which are so smart that sometimes you felt like a complete idiot. You can't go clubbing because you have no time, so you're considered a no life person (szu may's definition of no-life person).

But I am here to DECLARE one thing. I am VERY HAPPY doing medicine!

I've been staying up till 4 to 5am everyday doing my AIR, PBL and revision these few days. Lecture starts at 10.30am and that means I have only 5 hours to sleep a day. So...why am I still so happy doing it?

Joyfulness in my heart comes from God. I know my hardwork pleases God and in return, I feel joy in my heart.

I am HAPPY because I know that one day, I will end up saving countless lifes.
I am HAPPY because I know that, I am giving all glory to God through all my deeds.
I am HAPPY because I know that I am doing both my parents proud.
I am HAPPY because I know that whatever I am doing now will in the future influence people around me to work hard towards pleasing God.

I guess I have too many reasons to be happy.

I enjoy the little 1 hour jog I do everyday.
I enjoy the bed after a day of hard work.
I enjoy reading the living bread every night.
I enjoy smsing with Robyn and Amanda when I'm bored.
I enjoy sharing God's word with those around me.

I am quite proud of myself for bringing Stephanie back to church.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straighter - Prov. 3:5,6

Through God, I have learnt how to control my anger.
Through God, I have reconciled with a few friends after a few years of feud.
Through God, I found joy and hope.
Through God, I found confidence in doing everything I want to do.
Through God, I learnt to honor my father and mother.

Ok. Let me share you a random story!

How many of you have ever swam 2.2km freestyle in less than an hour? It sounds like a big challenge right? At least...for me, that's a HUGE challenge. I have a hard time finishing 50m and now you're telling me to do 2.2km?

Well, 2 Fridays ago, I did swam 2.2km at the National Aquatic Centre in Bukit Jalil. How can something seemed so impossible became possible for me without me realizing it? From the start when this challenge was thrown to me since year 2006, I've never been able to do it. The best I did was 600m and I was like freaking exhausted.

Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things - Matthew 6:34

It seemed better for me to face the 2.2km thinking only about one stroke at a time instead of the entire 2.2km to conquer. And I believe, for every challenge we face, God is there to provide us strength.

Life can be like that sometimes. If we peer too far ahead of today, the challenges may feel like a Mt. Everest climb. They can appear impossible to handle if we think we have to be "ready to do 2.2km".

Its 3.33am now. I am going to do a bit more revision before I sleep.

I have a request. If there is anyone out there who have any verses for motivation to study or verses to strengthen a person's faith to God, please share it with me in the comment box. I want to share them with the people I know who are currently struggling in their life. Thank you!

The Strength to MOVE ON!!!!

2008-10-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

I’ve been wanting to write about this topic for a long time now but I couldn’t find the time. Anyway, here it is.

I went through a period of darkness a couple of weeks ago. I was so depressed, so emotional and so confused on the situation that happened a few weeks ago. Anger mounts in my heart as day passes by and I was so pissed at almost anything that goes against my way. I technically felt as if the world has collapsed on me. All hopes seemed to be lost and I’m alone fighting my way through one of the darkest path of my life.

There is one person who I want to thank for bringing me out of this period of darkness. Her name is Robyn Wong. I sincerely want to express my sincere gratitude for her help. Eventhough her summative is so near, she still came to rescue me. Thank you Robyn.

During my darkest hour one night, I made a random call and I randomly called Robyn. She made my night that day chatting about random things. Its so comforting chatting with her. Her laugh drew smiles on my face. Most importantly, she gave me a verse, which made a turning point in my life.

Psalm 147:3

He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds.
He counts the number of the stars;
He calls them all by name.
Great is our Lord, and mighty in power;
His understanding is infinite.
The LORD lifts up the humble;
He casts the wicked down to the ground.

I read this verse over and over and over again that night. I pray for healing and I prayed for forgiveness. I put my faith in God that He will heal my heart.

Three days later, God really did heal my heart and I was able to forgive the person who trespassed against me. Lord! You’re WONDERFUL! Because of the wonders that God has done in my life, I began to read daily bread everyday before I sleep. I began to do things that can glorify God.

I came to realize that that dark situation which happened on me happened for a purpose. It strengthened my faith unto the Lord and also helped me acquire the skill of humbleness as well as forgiveness.

I don’t show off my knowledge or my talent these days. I don’t scold the Vista guards anymore for asking me to write my name when I do not have the resident card. I don’t boast about my feat the other day running in the park. I don’t get irritated fast when someone tries to test my patience. I think, I am a better man now.

Now I am single. In one of the sermon I had in church, the pastor told us that if we want to be in a relationship, the relationship MUST help both of us to grow STRONGER in God. And in order for the relationship to last a life time, both of us MUST be Christ-like. Instead of pointing fingers at each other, we should point the fingers to ourselves and change ourselves before changing others.

For those out there who are single like me, my advice is simple. Follow the word of God and try to be more Christ-like. I am sure girls will automatically come to you if they feel that you’re caring, loving, humble etc.

Finally, I want to thank God and Robyn for bringing me out of my situation. I’ve found the courage to move on and to rebuild myself to be a better person. =D

A handful of thorns!

2008-10-11T00:46:00.001+08:00

Jeremy Taylor was a 17th-century English cleric who was severely persecuted for his faith. But though his house was plundered, his family left destitute, and his property confiscated, he continued to count the blessings he could not lose.

He wrote: “They have not taken away my merry countenance, my cheerful spirit, and a good conscience; they have still left me with the providence of God, and all His promises . . . my hopes of Heaven, and my charity to them, too, and still I sleep and digest, I eat and drink, I read and meditate. And he that hath so many causes of joy, and so great should never choose to sit down upon his little handful of thorns.”

Although we may not be afflicted with the grievous difficulties that Jeremy Taylor endured, all of us face trials and troubles. Are we grumbling? Or do we refuse to let our “little handful of thorns,” our troubles, obscure the overwhelming abundance of our blessings?

When we feel like complaining, let’s remember God’s faithfulness and “give thanks to the LORD! Call upon His name; make known His deeds among the peoples! . . . Remember His marvelous works which He has done!” (Ps. 105:1,5). — Vernon C. Grounds

When upon life’s billows you are tempest-tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost;
Count your many blessings—name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord has done. —Oatman

Spend your time counting your blessings, not airing your complaints.

Happy Birthday Chun Yen. You're now 20 years old!

2008-10-05T11:51:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Chun Yen,
Happy birthday to you. =D

Yea, my birthday has just ended. It was on the 4th of October. I had a wonderful day with my friends. Thank you guys!

I started celebrating on the 3rd of October. Me, Adam, George, Alvina, Szu May and Christine went to Midvalley to kind of celebrate my birthday =D. Upon reaching, we had lunch at chillies. The food was good and damn, I didnt get enough refills to make my milo worth the buck. Haha. Overall its good. Then I went on to watch the movie 'connected'. I must say, that this is one of the best movie I've watched this year apart from other movies like 'money not enough' etc. Louis Koo is so damn funny. Haha. Watching this show made me laugh from the start of the movie till the end. Movie rating: 9/10.

Then upon watching finish 'connected', we line up and get another movie ticket for 'painted skin'. Many of my friends say this movie is quite boring, but I think it is a moderately good movie. The progress of the movie is a bit slow, but the plot is strong. The female actresses are also quite pretty. Therefore, movie rating: 7/10. Hehe. After watching two movies, it was about 7pm and we decided to eat seafood at Cheras. My parking ticket is RM6....damn!!!

Ok, I got comment on Szu May's driving. It's FREAKING FREAKING DANGEROUS!!! Haha. You CAN'T do a 3 point turn at a small 2 lane road with plenty of cars. It's so freaking dangerous and yet she did it. She made cars wait at least 2 minutes long for her to complete her 3 point turn. About 5 times of reversing to get her car to face the opposite direction. Lolz.

Then, at the restaurant, ordering can sometimes take a long time. We couldn't really decide what to eat and so, we end up asking for the menu in a CHINESE restaurant. Lolz! This is like my first time seeing a menu in a classic chinese restaurant. =D We ordered crab, fish, tofu, vege and chicken for 5 people. The tofu was really nice. The crab made me kind of tired eating it. Haha. Its nice though. Total price: abt RM112...considerable price =D

That was about 10.30pm already when we finished eating. Feeling a bit itchy in the mouth, we head off to have green bean drinks at a side stall in Cheras near Szu May's place. While I was enjoying my green bean drink, there is this Malay guy on a bike who try to force his way through two cars which are so close to each other. Can't he possibly wait a while? In the end, he scratched both cars badly and drove away. This is the kind of spirit of Hari Raya? I don't know.

Haha, I reached home at about 11.45pm. Then I called a friend and chat with that person for about 2 hours. Its really really enjoyable chatting with that person. Haha. You're really really funny =P. Maybe one day when you're done with your exams, we can do that again. Haha. Many ppl wished me happy birthday at midnight sharp =D. Thanks everyone!

Then...finally the great big day, 4th of October 2008!!! Haha. Me, Meng Suan and Winson went to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate my birthday. 3 guys...haha...people think we're gays! We went there quite early and we watched a movie 'eagle eye' at 11.20am. It is an action movie packed with sophisticated advance machineries. The plot is good, the progress is good and this movie, I would rate it 8/10. A should watch movie. Haha. After 'eagle eye', we went and have our lunch in KFC.

Then, we went for skating. It's super expensive to skate nowadays. My ticket costed me RM21. Lolz. Because it was so expensive, we decided to skate till dinner time =D. So, it was Winson's first time and Meng Suan's first time. The first round was a real terrible experience for Winson. Haha. He fell like 10 times just to make the 1 round. And later, he found out that his shoe was the problem. He didnt really tighten his shoe. After he tighten it, it made so much of difference. Haha...he can skate better now =D.

Well, Meng Suan had a good day at the skating ring. There is this girl name Hana (a total stranger) bang into him. They both fell and Meng Suan help her back up. Hana is a beginner and well, at one point, she nudged Meng Suan for help. Haha. Meng Suan managed to hold her hands, hold her waist and technically hugged her to prevent her from falling...LOLZ. Naughty SUAN!!! Seeing her struggling to skate, I gave her some tips on how to skate. I can skate but I don't really know whether my technique is correct or wrong. Haha. Then at the end of the day, Meng Suan went and asked for her number. Haha....I knew that would happen =P.

Anyway, we met up with Jun, my college friend and we had dinner in Asia Cafe. Winson couldn't make it because he needs to be back by 7pm. Jun treated me with a big cup of carrot milk and chicken chop for dinner. Thank you Jun. Haha. It was kinda nice to be back at Asia Cafe, the place where I had my meals almost everyday for the past 1.5 years when I was back in Taylors.

I went home at about 9 something and fell asleep. It was totally totally exhaustive.

Today, I'll be heading home for my family dinner. Yea...though my parents wouldn't probably wish me happy birthday, but I know, in my heart, they already wished me happy birthday the minute the clock strucked midnight =D. Then after dinner, I'll be having a small celebration with my juniors. Haha....Enjoy!

That You May Know

2008-10-01T03:26:00.001+08:00

One day, while Wim was in the marketplace in the Netherlands, he struck up a conversation with a woman who remarked that you can get to heaven by doing good works.

His attempt to explain that it is by God’s grace that we are “saved through faith” (Eph. 2:8) brought a smile as the woman repeated confidently: “and . . . by doing good works.” Then another woman volunteered, “You can hope you’ll go to heaven, but you can’t be sure.” Wim’s assertion that he did know for sure was met with a muttered, “Nobody knows for sure.”

Wim then showed the woman what 1 John 5:11-13 says. He explained: “See, it doesn’t say hope there, it says know.” Unconvinced, she said, “Like you, my pastor says that we have to have faith, but you really never know whether you’ve been good enough. You may think you have, but who can be sure?”

To some, Wim’s confidence may seem incredible. But he based his words on this statement: “For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works” (Eph. 2:8-9).

It’s true. We can’t be good enough. We can never do enough good things. But we can be sure of heaven if we simply believe on the Lord (Acts 16:31). — Cindy Hess Kasper

We cannot earn our way to heaven
By word or work or worth;
But if we trust in Christ to save us,
Then we’ll enjoy new birth. —Branon

We are saved by God’s mercy, not by our merit—by Christ’s dying, not by our doing.

Patience!

2008-09-25T20:56:00.001+08:00

We’ve all heard the prayer: “Lord, make me more patient—and do it now!”

Why is it that patience evaporates when we are late for a critical engagement and are caught in a traffic jam? Or we rush to the “10 items or less” line at the store, only to find someone in front of us with 16 items!

Being forced to wait ratchets up the stress and shortens our fuse. When that happens, we not only fail to be patient but we undercut the Spirit’s work in our lives.

Patience is not just a virtue, it’s a fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22)—which means that demonstrations of impatience reveal the sour fruit of our fallen hearts rather than the sweetness of Jesus in our lives. Since God is a patient God, when we abandon patience we miss the opportunity to show our world the glory of God through our lives.

Bursts of impatience only demonstrate that we are more concerned with our own agendas than the needs and struggles of others. So let’s all take a deep breath and turn our focus away from ourselves by patiently loving others instead of ourselves in the midst of stress.

Patience gives us the privilege of sharing the refreshing fruit of God with others. — Joe Stowell

Our wrath uncurbed will not fulfillGod’s perfect plan for us;We must be patient and refuseTo fret, to fume, to fuss. —Sper

Be patient. Show your world what God is really like.

Resident Card System in Vista Komanwel B

2008-09-17T13:28:00.001+08:00

I personally felt that the resident card system is full of shit.

Here are my concerns.

1) We are required to write our name if we don’t have the resident card. How would you know if what we write there is true?
2) Let say what we wrote on register book is true, so what? If anything happens in vista, are you going to have the hundreds of names in the book investigated?
3) The management threatens that if we do not have the resident card, we will be embarrassed. What on earth? This is an intimidation!
4) Why are we needed to carry cards to enter our own house?
5) This is the most important. Who are the beneficiaries of this resident card system? The cards basically worth less than RM2. Where the balances go? Where is transparency?

There are much more concerns about this resident card system but above are the main ones. I don’t really know which ‘smart’ guy came up with this ‘smart’ idea. To me, it is all bull shit.

Why not come up with ideas like CCTV along secluded pathways, escape staircase and increase the number of patrols around vista B? Why not make sure that every single guard in vista B carries a name tag for proper identification (so far, I don’t notice a tag even if they carry one around. Probably that’s because they don’t usually wear it).

And, the guard told me once that without the resident card, I can’t book the badminton hall and can’t use the swimming pool. So, can I don’t pay the maintenance fees?

I plead to the management to start using your head when trying to solve the rising crime problems in vista B. Use more common sense instead of coming up with this stupid resident card system.

My resolution is, abolish the resident card system. Make a refund to all those who have applied. Think of a better way to solve the problem. Remember, your job is to ensure the comfort of the residents…

A New Life~~

2008-09-15T20:38:00.002+08:00

3 weeks into Haematology and I felt that my life is the happy go lucky type. I did not study much, play dota too much, go for this and that, meeting friends and sleeping a lot. This kind of life doesn't really go the same path as the path walked by medical students.

I got to change. I got to set my priorities. I got to be more focused on what is important in front of me.

IMU cup Chinese Chess is over. Got a silver medal =D. Though we lost the defending champion title, nevertheless we're still a strong team =D

I'll have to be stricter with my life and this starts now!

Money Not Enough 2~~~

2008-09-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

I went to Monash University today for the MAPCU chinese chess competition. The system that was being played was the knockout system. First time in my life, I see a chinese chess TOURNAMENT with a KNOCKOUT system. I totally disagree with the system, but seeing that the organisers are the ones in charge, I have decided to respect their system. I almost beat the gold medalist (if not for time pressure). Damnit. They know my weakness...which is time! We drew the first game and because this is a knockout system, we are forced to play the second game. 5 minutes for both of us. DAMNIT. I knew I will surely lose...and yes..I did lose. Darn! But I must congratulate the organising committee for organising this tournament because of their COURAGE in doing it. They have absolutely NO BACKGROUND in chinese chess and yet they took it on their own to organise it. I salute you guys! p/s: use round robin next time yea =D

Then I went to Sunway Pyramid to watch a movie. I met up with Yi Jun (old friend) who is working part time in Starbucks. She then make a cup of extra hot coffee (got fancy name but I've forgotten about it) for me. It was normal la...taste like normal coffee although she claimed that it contains...a few shots of expresso, syrup..bla bla bla. Haha. I just don't know how to taste them =P

Ok....now the MOST important part. I watched a movie called Money Not Enough 2! My god...its definitely comparable to 'I'm not Stupid 2'. Its so so so so touching!!! Rarely a movie can strike me this hard. The last time I felt this sensation was when I watched 'I'm not stupid 2'.

For those who haven't watch the movie...please stop reading =D

Mothers are the most important people in our life. The gave birth to us, love us with all their heart, work their ass off to make sure we received all the comfort, worried about us when we were in school, help us to take the blames when we do mistakes and many many more. However, sometimes I'll call ourselves assholes! We take our parents for granted. We expect them to give us pocket money (the more the better), we expect them to do this do that without realizing that they are not as strong as last time. During our birthdays, we rather celebrate with our friends than with our parents. We rather go out with our friends for movies than our parents. We rather go for a trip with our friends rather than our parents. We share the burden of our friends rather than our parents.

We are really assholes! This movie pointed out the reality. Go watch it for yourself. The movie is so real that it hit my heart so badly. A mother forever sacrificing for the children but yet, the children forever taking it for granted....

Solved!!!

2008-09-10T16:41:00.001+08:00

Sem 3 and Sem 5 are both gold medalist for chess. This is the fairest solution I can think of. Congratz!!!

First gold medal for my batch =D...Must work hard for the next event = chinese chess

Mixed Feelings~~~

2008-09-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

Right now, I am quite disturbed by the IMU cup chess competition. We were declared the gold medalist and then after some problems, we were then given the silver medal. After my team and I looked through the FIDE rules, we found out that we should be given the gold medal. No details shall be revealed here..but, I am just very disturbed that I have to bother William and Benjamin about these issues. And now, I've found an even more disturbing news. Damnit!!!..haha. I just hope justice will prevail and God will deliver the truth!

Today was the swimming competition. I don't know why but I got very pressured the minute I step on the plunging board. I joined 4x50 mens relay and 4x50 mixed relay. I got to admit one thing. I suck in free style. My stamina is too low for a super speed free style. But...thanks to the grace of God, our team made it to third place for both the events. Yahoo!!!...another 2 medals into my collection. But all the glory belongs to God because...without Him, I wouldn't have been able to overcome my pressures!

Oh ya, I went to church today. In church...somehow, I felt that the spirit touched me. I felt that someone, something....is telling me to set goals in life. I've been wandering around these few weeks aimlessly. No goals, no objectives in mind. I felt like its time to set a goal in my life!

I need to work hard!!!

The TOUCH of God!

2008-08-31T13:56:00.002+08:00

Last week, I had my CVS and Respi exam on Thursday. It was a tough exam since I did not study my CVS during the 2 months break. Therefore, throughout the 3 weeks of Respi, I laboured day and night trying to finish up my studies of CVS and Respi.

4 days before my exam, bacteria (possibly from the genus Streptococcus) started to attack my pharynx. My large army, namely my immune system, lost the battle. A lot of my comrades died and we have to retreat. The bacteria, emerging victoriously on the battlefield, started to caused massive destruction on my pharynx. It was a tough day.

My boss, the brain was so angry with the defeat. My brain rose the temperature of my body in order to enhance my immune system to fight against the bacteria. As a consequence, I felt malaise, dizzy, weak, tired...and worst of all, I was unable to sleep.

At this particular time, I started praying very hard to God. I pray for the HOLY SPIRIT to be with me so that with the help of holy might, we can crush the bacteria and destroy them for good. And...by God's grace, my prayers was answered. New energy started rushing into me and my immune system went and did an ambush on the bacteria and we emerge victoriously on the battle field. My brain was so happy that he began to cool down.

I felt alright and I managed to sleep that night. After I doze into a deep sleep, I could not remember what happened next.

When I woke up the next morning, I felt ill again. The battle again started and this time, it was really terrible. The bacteria came on with full force. It seemed that they have multiplied tremendously during the night due to their high rate of binary fission.

I was a bit worried about this because my exam was on Thursday. I quickly went and see a doctor and I was prescribed with amoxycillin, a powerful ally. 2 battalion of amoxycillin enter my body every meal and I have altogether 6 battalion of amoxycillin every day.

With God's grace, in just 1 and a half day, I was feeling well again. The bacteria's cell wall was broken by the battalions of amoxycillin. My immune system too broke down a few cell walls and also sent some assasins into the bacteria's interior camp.

At the end of the day, I won! I really thank God for the holy might I've received. Without it, I might still be sick during the exam. Thank you Lord!!!!

Misery...Pain....Misery...Pain...Misery...Pain

2008-08-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

The mamak guy used recycle water to boil my maggi. After that, he fried my maggi using recycle oil. Finally, he served the maggi to me and gave me recycled cutleries.

Feeling super hungry, I gobble up the food. Although it was not as good as the maggi at Ajimal Razeem, nevertheless, it satisfied my hunger.

1 week ago, I was on medication. I was taking amoxycillin due to my throat infection. Amoxycillin is a kind of penicillin which kills all kinds of bacteria. So...the good bacteria and the bad bacteria in my body was killed. There is insufficient normal flora in my body to defend against infection.

With a litlte bit of bad luck, the next day after eating the maggi goreng, I was down with an unknown sickness. I felt nauseated and having stomachache at the same time. I felt slightly feverish and there is no diarrhoea.

I know this illness I have is something mild, but its as if the whole world falls on me. I find it so difficult to walk, talk, concentrate etc. Even during the mass dance practice, the minute I try to dance, I felt this excruciating pain in my stomach and I felt like vomitting. Of course, no one notice or felt the pain other than me.

Even while watching basketball, I also felt the same thing. Man...how I wish the pain would just go away. I felt drowsy...my face is very pale.

I thought probably playing basketball would solve the problem. No...I was wrong. It didnt solve the problem but actually aggravate the problem.

Argh..what the hell!!!

I only took 2 breads today for lunch and a loaf of bread for dinner. I felt like eating more...but I just can't. Taking in just one loaf of bread actually took me about 5 minutes.

At this juncture, I felt that I am a patient rather than the doctor. The pain, the misery, the social consequences....all this I felt as a patient. Its so so so so so so depressing to be down with illness.

Doctors...if only you ppl can manage a patient from the clinical side as well as the psychological side of medicine....

A Purpose In Life~~~

2008-08-17T15:35:00.002+08:00

These few weeks have been hectic weeks for me.

Exam is just around the corner and I've been studying hard for this exam.

At time of crisis such as this, I felt that my life is so full of purpose. I'm diligently studying to improve my knowledge on medicine. At the same time...because of stress...I began to rely on God and my relationship with HIM has improved tremendously. It is at times like these...times when I'm not at my peak, God gave me strength to go ahead and strive for excellence.

I felt that I've missed so much things in life when my exam draws near. I miss basketball, badminton, music, gatherings...so MUCH MORE! But at the same time...I felt a purpose in life. I believe that we have time for EVERYTHING. There are times for study, play, eat, sleep, shit, piss...anything!

Being so stressed up yesterday, I went to play basketball at night. Throughout the game, I almost forgot that I am having my exams soon. When I came back home, I began to think. How nice it would be if I can go for more sports and music when my exam is over!!!

Another thing struck my mind yesterday. During my 2 months holiday, I felt that I've achieved nothing. Other than sleep, DOTA, sleep...I've technically achieved nothing. "Slaps self"! I need to start establishing purposes in life. Even a small gathering should have a purpose (the purpose is fellowship).

I want to play nice songs on the piano, guitar and drum. I want to play better basketball and badminton. I want to sing. I want to dance. I want to have more friends. I want to do something for the community. I want to play better chess. Seems like attention-deficit disorder right? NO!!! It's just...that ...it's a purpose in life. It a purpose which drives me to do it. Without a goal in life, we technically don't progress. After we reached our goals, we should aim higher and higher.

Of course, at the same time, we must not forget our friends. Friends are treasures for life. If you were to put achievements and friends on a weighing machine, friends will definitely weigh more (this is my definition).

I guess I'm a mix type A and B personality guy. Type A personality and Type B personality are prone to CVS disease. So...me being half type A and type B would have lesser risk for CVS disease...I think =D

Long holidays aren't enjoying for me. Long holidays means more purposeless days. Its nice to have holidays but short holidays would be enough to replenish myself. Classes are sometimes quite boring, stressful etc...and we were forced to study those topics. But....at least at the end of the day...you do gain something out of it. And more importantly, the knowledge you've acquired that day might do a great deal between life and death of the patient.

Time to go back to study for my exams. I wish all M207 good luck for the CVS and RESPI examination!!!

Racist but Rewarded...WTH!!!

2008-08-13T22:09:00.003+08:00

Taken from New Straits Times

By : V. Shankar Ganesh

BANTING: It obviously pays to hurl racial abuse at students, going by what happened to the teacher who did so at a school here.

The 35-year-old history teacher from SM Telok Panglima Garang was not only transferred to a smart school but to one located nearer her house.

To add insult to injury, no disciplinary action was taken against her.

It is understood that her letter of transfer stated that she was being transferred due to concerns for her security and not because she had committed an offence.

Several parents and non-governmental rganizations gathered in front of the school yesterday demanding an explanation from the headmaster for letting her off with just a slap on the wrist.

However, the headmaster refused to meet them, saying the matter was no longer related to the school since the teacher had been transferred.

Coalition of Indian NGOs secretary G. Gunaraj said the transfer showed the teacher had got away scot-free.

”In fact, she even got a better deal. She is now in a better school and one that is nearer to her house.”

He said this set a dangerous precedent as others may think they too can get away scot-free uttering racial slurs.

He said the Education Ministry should be serious in tackling the issue as what the teacher had done could affect racial harmony.

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This female lady who thinks she is a teacher should be sacked, fined and should be demanded a public apology.

Back in high school, I never really pay a high respect of teachers because I know they are not entirely professional. Some of them are racist...as in REALLY REALLY RACIST! They only know how to appreciate the Muslim students who do well but not the Chinese and Indian students.

Ah..what the hell...I'll never surrender to "it's always like that..you have to get used to it"

Uncivilised Malaysians and Biased Police~~~

2008-08-09T15:34:00.003+08:00

From Malaysiakini:

About 300 protesters gathered outside the Bar Council headquarters demanding that the lawyers group halt its controversial forum on ‘Conversion to Islam’ this morning.

The open forum on the sensitive religious issue kicked off at 9am but angry protestors have given organisers half an hour to cancel the event.

About 15 police officers and an Federal Reserve Unit truck have been deployed to the area and the road leading to the Bar Council office where the forum is held has been closed.

The protesters, many of whom are from Muslim welfare organsation Perkida and Islamic party PAS, shouted, “Hancur Bar Council” (Crush Bar Council), “Hidup Islam” (Long Live Islam) and “Batal forum” (Cancel the forum).

They are carrying placards saying “Jangan cabar Islam” (Don’t challenge Islam) and “Bar Council, Don’t play with fire”.

The demonstration was generally peaceful, but several forum participants were subjected to verbal abuse and profanities when they exited the Bar Council building.

Shouts of “babi”, “pengkhianat” and “balik China” were heard as forum participants trickled out of the venue.

Asked why he did not disperse the crowd in view of the security threats, Zulkarnain said that the police did not engage the crowd after assessing the situation.

“If we were to take action, nobody will be safe here,” he said, nothing that the initially passive crowd and turned more aggressive as the demonstration wore on.

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Since independence, it has been declared that our country is a secular country. For 50 years, we have lived together peacefully.

But if you have noticed, it is usually the Chinese and the Indians together and Malays alone. Why don't Malays mix with us Chinese and Indians? Their concept of "Ketuanan Melayu", "Hak Istimewa Orang Melayu" etc...clearly segregrates them from the rest of us. It gives the impression (probably the fact) that the Malays are first class citizens and the rest are 2nd class citizens.

Today's interfaith dialogue didn't end well. It was abruptly ended based on the news above. Why are those people...majority of them Malays are afraid of this interfaith dialogue? Why can't they be more open to changes and engage actively in dialogues....rather than carrying placard and protest infront of the venue.

Words like "Balik China" was hurled to the participants of the forum and these are words of RACIST. These are words that will stir up racial tension and the people who say these kind of words should be given counselling about the importance of RACIAL UNITY!!! (not sending them to jail!)

Malays MUST NOT FORGET that chinese and indians as well as other races played a role during the independence of our country. If we did not unite during the British rule, we would not have our independence. Read your history books well (obviously...don't read the ones edited by the government)

The police did not take any action on the crowds this time. Why? Because they are Malays? During the Hindraf protest, majority are Indians and they are greater in numbers. Why do the police and FRU take action on the crowds? This is clear act of biasness of the police. I still remember the BMC incident. A gang of FRU against one INNOCENT CHINESE DRIVER!

I hope that the government will really look into the racial situation in this country. Concepts of Ketuanan Melayu, Hak Istimewa, NEP and everything else that would segregate the population MUST GO!

Instead, the goverment should introduce more policies protecting the POOR. For example, why should the RICH MALAY get 5% DISCOUNT when purchasing a house? All these benefits should be given to the POOR!!!

I hope the PR would be more secular...including PAS!

Exhausted~~~

2008-08-03T20:45:00.002+08:00

I wish....

Monday = lecture
Tuesday = holiday
Wednesday = lecture
Thursday = holiday
Friday = lecture
Sat & Sun = holiday

End of the month = 2 weeks break

Rather than

Monday - Friday = lecture
Sat & Sun = break

End of the year = 2.5 months break

Man...CVS and Respi is KILLING ME. So fed up of reading H. S. Nagarajah's lecture notes. His lecture notes is the hardest to understand. At least JPJ's lecture notes is even better!

2 weeks and 4 days more to my summative for CVS and Respi! I'm so so so exhausted!!!

MERIT~~~ YAY!!!

2008-07-30T19:03:00.002+08:00

I've just received a call from Yamaha Music!

I've got MERIT for my GRADE 4 piano!!!

This is a wonderful news. A weeks before the exam, my replacement teacher complaint that I might fail the test because I suck so much in scales. Then I got a little sad and started to play and play and play for hours in IMU. I guess PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!

Nowadays, I felt that I can read the notes faster compare to last time. Guess...I really did improve. My decision to take the exam wasn't a wrong move after all =D

Next target....Grade 5 exam! =D

p/s: I do have a few scores in my collection. I'll try to upload one score each week or something =D

Sem 3!!!! RESPIRATORY SYSTEM....

2008-07-27T21:18:00.002+08:00

Sem 3 commencing on 10.30am tomorrow.

I've half excited, half pressured, half sad.

Excited because I'm going to meet my friends again.

Pressured cause exam is 4 weeks from now.

Sad cause I can't wake up late and lepak here lepak there anymore...

Respi...I'll KICK YOUR ARSE!

Malaysia SEMUA BOLEH ~~~ BARANG NAIK!!!

2008-07-27T14:59:00.004+08:00

I used to be able to take 2 meat, 1 egg and 1 vege with rice for the price of RM3.50. Now 2 vege and 1 egg cost me RM3.50.

The stall outside my house sells Nasi Kampung for RM3.50 last time...now it sells Nasi Kampung for RM4.00 (its an illegal stall, authorities come and see, and then go away....suspicious isn't it?)

Petrol price used to be much lower...now its RM2.70.

In Malaysia, everything goes up. Nothing goes down. Petrol NAIK, Barang NAIK..even OPPOSITION MP NAIK.

At this critical moment, the Terengganu state goverment still have the face to buy 14 Mercedes E200 Kompressor cars at RM3.43mil for the use of its state executive councillors and senior officials.

And then, our PM says that the 14 Mercedes will be used to ferry VIPs only.

Now my comment is this:

Clearly, the BN ppl are trying to live lavishly with the Rakyat's money. They buy a Merc so that they can show off. Then..its easier to speed with a Merc. Speed increase, petrol consumption increase....again...Rakyat's money.

Let's say the Merc breaks down...need to repair. Its easier to jack up the price because we know that Merc stuff are expensive. That's another loophole for corruption.

I went to Terengganu a few months back for a holiday. I saw the magnificent Crystal Mosque (Islamic Civilisation Park). Then I saw the site of Monsoon Cup. The question is....does the Rakyat of Terengganu needs all this? Or do we need more public universities, more schools, more job opportunities and stuff like this?

RM3000 a month...can you survive???

2008-07-25T17:41:00.003+08:00

Can A Family Man With Salary RM3,000 Survive In Malaysia ...!

Let's do some simple calculations here.

In Malaysia , the average family income isRM3,000 /month(where father works, mother doesn't).

I understand there are many families whose monthly income does not reach RM3,000,but, to make things simple, let's take RM3,000as the figure. Ok lah, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son.

Ngam-ngam ....Calculation starts...

Electricity and water bill: RM100(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill ( Telekom): RM100 (Internet streamxy RM68 + land line RM25 = RM93, round-up to RM100 la)

Meals for a happy family: RM775(3 meals on RM25/day 4 persons. Forget about makan in restaurant ya)

Papa makan / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam) : RM300(go to work, bring son to school, only can afford one car running. NO YET CONSIDER PETROL INCREASE 40.8%)

Insurance: RM650(Kids, wife and self. Forget about insurance la..no money to pay, lets drop it)

House repayment: RM750(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs, retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition: RM80(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper, saman, etc)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so...

No Astro,
no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no toys
no computer,
no KFC,
no McDonald,
no insurance
no jalan-jalan makan angin (vacation)
no chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...
nothing breaks down for repair

Let's use a calculator to total up... WALAO EH! Shit!RM2,960already...

EPF belum potong, income tax lagi........ oledi RM2,960 ....

How to survive lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian ???Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle?How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?

Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month! !!What is this?

Inilah Malaysia Boleh...Sorry... it should be Malaysians Boleh, because we're still alive and kicking!!Our politicians must be mad!!!!

2008-07-25T16:06:00.005+08:00

Malacca Here I come!!!

I'll be heading to Malacca for the last 3 days of my holidays!!!

Haha...last break before a crazy life again...

KIASUness in MEDICAL SCHOOL!!!!

2008-07-23T23:59:00.003+08:00

I've spent 10 FREAKING HOURS to finish up my CONGENITAL HEART DISEASE lecture.

This is the longest time I've ever spent on a lecture.

Anyway, that lecture is done for now!

In this post, I would want to say something about medical schools.

For your information, medical schools are full of KIASU people. Kiasu people means they just CAN'T LOSE!

I am a victim of this phenomena.

I have this friend, let's call him Mr. X who is freaking kiasu. He just can't lose to me. He would study day night long when he sees me studying. He would hide his extra information from me in fear that I would be better than him. He would go for the extra classes, extra museum sessions, extra groupwork, extra this, extra that...just to make sure he's better than me.

In the end, yea...he got better results than me....won by a bit. Yet, he told me he got lower grade than me until I found out the truth. I am ok with him being kiasu, but not to the extend of lying to me which in the end made me feel stupid.

Some say, he lied to me because he is humble. But hell NO! He lied to me in summative 1, 2 and EOS 2 continously. That one you call humble? He would want to know my results first and then lie to me. WTF???

Mr. X, if you are reading this, you know who you are. Our friendship which has been on for years, I hope you can treasure it and we can forget our competitiveness and be good friends back together just like the olden days. There is no need for who is better in the medical field. I may be good in cardio and you may be good in neuro.

Anyway, I am sure a lot of people out there are victims of the KIASU syndrome....

2008-07-21T10:25:00.002+08:00

This week is still a holiday week...but....damn!

Why am I feeling so stressed up now?.....

Deadline by today: Must FINISH COP!!!!

2008-07-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

Orientation for the new batches is finally over!!!

I can see a lot of effort in this orientation. Kudos to everyone who is involved!

Though, I must admit that this is the worst orientation ever!

IMU is so restrictive. Juniors are so weak (got one group claimed that they are all allergic to everything including FLOUR). Orientation committee got so much internal affairs etc...

Nevertheless, orientation is over and the expectation that I personally set for this orientation has been achieved.

My expectation is to see group members forming a long lasting friendship bonds with each other.

The group that I hang out with, group 7, has lived up to my expectation. Different people from different backgrounds come together and worked as a team for this orientation.

Everyday, they stay back late to prepare the dress code, choreograph the dance, prepare their cheers etc. Just one week and it feels like they've been together for years.

On wednesday, they even stayed over until 3am to prepare for Wednesday's variety night.

Though there are ups and downs, this group is so far...one of the BEST group.

As for orientation, kudos for the effort in the hip hop dance and the oriental dance!

2008-07-19T15:56:00.002+08:00

One more week till sem starts!

I'm so pressured now.

Embryology ate up 6 hours of my time yesterday. Just 3 lecture slides and I took 2 hours. Its so hard to understand.

But now, I'm amazed at how great God is! The way your aorta and your pulmonary artery form is just wonderful.

Urgh, congenital pathology is next.......!!!!

Gambate!~~~

2008-07-18T01:55:00.003+08:00

From Malaysiakini,

Issue about scholarships.

Tajuddin (MP for Pasir Salak): This is Malay rights. I have met several cabinet ministers and they agreed me with me that scholarships should only be reserved for Malays. There should be no compromises!

Tajuddin (MP for Pasir Salak): You shut up! You shut up! I have children studying in England, Ireland and Australia and they have no scholarships. But I want rural Malays and lower income groups - even in Sabah and Sarawak - to get scholarships, like what is said in the constitution.

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What about rural Chinese and Indian and lower income groups?

Since Mr Tajuddin here is so rich, why not you go help the rural Malays and lower income group by using YOUR OWN MONEY?

We chinese take out money and fund some chinese schools and help out the poor people (all races btw) because we have a heart.

I think that this Mr Tajuddin here should not be elected in the first place. He is freaking racist and he have children studying in England, Ireland and Australia....eh? You Tajuddin from BN right? I thought you should encourage your children to study in Malaysia? How come send your children to overseas?

SCAMMERS IN KL!!! RED ALERT!!!

2008-07-17T21:49:00.003+08:00

Welley Corporation Sdn Bhd ---------- SCAMMING COMPANY

Nabinco Network Sdn Bhd ---------- SCAMMING COMPANY

ATTENTION ALL MALAYSIANS

Recently, I've been approached by a young man, age about 19 yrs old who wish to do some survey at Vista Komanwel Bukit Jalil. This guy is from Nabinco Network Sdn. Bhd. First thing when I opened my door, he try and convince me to conduct a survey. Being a nice guy, I entertained his request. Then after the survey, he said that since I'm so good in doing the survey, he wants to give me 2 vouchers.

Before I even open the first voucher, he already start saying its a thank you voucher (which means I'll get nothing). Well, I miss that though and open the second voucher. Upon opening the second voucher, he jumped and jumped and jumped in joy while saying that the mystery gift could be a car!!!

Seeing him being so convincing, well, I let him in to explain further how this voucher works. He came in, we sat down and we began our long long discussion. He start telling me that I can win a car or cash prizes and stuff. He even show me a letter from his company and also a newspaper cut.

BUT!!! There's a catch. I would have to pay RM5600 in order to get my prize. What shit is this? I started looking for flaws in him. There are basically thousand and one loopholes in him that made me less convinced about what he said.

Being a medical student who analyses case, I took in every point he says and fire back at him. Then I went further to google his company name and I found out that his company is a scam. I try to convince him to quit his damn company and go for a good company. Admittedly, his social skills is good. If he become a salesperson for supermarket, he'll be a good one =D.

Well, his flaws are:

a) His company is a scam (proved by google search yet he deny this)

b) His letter's letterhead does not have a telephone number (usually all companies will have letterhead)

c) The newspaper mention that I need to purchase some product before I can enter the contest (he said that for his company, I don't need to purchase anything)

d) He claims that Sony Manager is in his office. (Who would believe Sony Manager to be so free in his office? Obviously if I am boss and I want to hire a marketing company, I'll send my people there)

e) Two different name appear in his formal letter. Nabinco Network Marketing Sdn. Bhd. and Nabinco Network Sdn. Bhd.

f) Despite me telling him that I don't want the prize, he kept insisting on it

g) He even offer me RM4400 to 'help' me pay the RM5600

h) He fail his STPM (5E..that's what he told me but I don't believe as well), doesn't know english, only know mandarin (you think any legal company would want this kind of people)

i) He claims that his clients who won are from Iran, Saudi, China, Hong Kong etc. (you think a guy who only knows mandarin can convince clients from Iran and Saudi?)

j) When he call up his boss, he repeated my IC number (i gave it to him when we were conducting the survey) so fast and ended the conversation. You think anyone can catch so many numbers in less than 2 seconds?

There are so many more flaws but I'm lazy to pinpoint them. Anyway, just beware of this man. Such a wonderful soul being wasted to cheat students. Oh ya, don't even try to cheat a medical student. You'll fail!

=D

2008-07-17T11:38:00.002+08:00

Pharma...pharma....pharma pharma.......pharmacy....pharmacy...pharmacy

This is week is pharmacy and health sciences orientation combined. Total students approximately 250.

I was part of the orientation becoming a game master. It seems that our juniors this year are less sporting. A little bit flour already started to complain. Haih....

Worst off, there is a liar in their batch. I mean...play the game honestly la...what's the point of lying???

And then, there's MTV night. Last year was a failure, this year...i think...it'll be a failure again. Let's just see what happen tonight...=D

2008-07-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Man....this is so damn tiring.

ECG just cant get in sync with me!!!

ECG....why do you have so many variation????

PQRST!!!!

2008-07-12T11:38:00.002+08:00

Finally I've managed to complete this list of questions sent to me. =D

1. What school do you currently attend? And what is your major and/or level?

I am currently reading medicine in the International Medical University in Malaysia. My clinical years will probably be done in the UK or Australia under the partner medical school programme.

2. If you don't mind me asking, how old were you when you started your medical program?

I’ve started the medical programme while I was 19 years old.

3. What type of doctor do you hope to become and why? Also, what interested you in that particular field?

I desire to be a cardiothoracic surgeon. I am interested in the cardiovascular system since high school. I also prefer to do things hands-on, hence arriving at the conclusion that I should be a cardiothoracic surgeon.

4.What is the best thing that has happened to you, while you were at school? And what was a trial for you (something that you got over or through)?

I made through first year and now, I’m a second year medical student. My first year final exam was a completely different experience for me and I’m glad I’ve made it through.

5. What advice would you give students regarding things they can do to have a more fulfilling life in medical school or college?

Medical itself is fulfilling for me. In addition to that, I think one should have sufficient time spent on outdoor activities.

6. In what ways do you think you can help society after your done with school?

I’ll become a clinical doctor and manage the sick people. That would be my part for the society.

7. What are some of your activities or hobbies you participate in outside of school?

I jog and swim regularly. I also play board games competitively especially chess.

8. What are 3 things that keeps you sane in a potentially overwhelming environment?

God, friends and family support, my dream of becoming a doctor

9 Thank you so much for your time, any last words or comments?

Work hard and good luck for your future undertakings!

2008-07-07T16:17:00.002+08:00

Urgh!!!

I went down to Kamal Bookstore to get a couple of books today. Bought Kumar and Clark Clinical Medicine for RM99, Langman's Medical Embryology for RM75 and Baby Pathology for RM75. Its just so damn expensive to study medicine...haihz!

Anyway, that's not the peak of today's happenings. While I was on my way home, this asshole car try to cut into my lane from 2 lanes away. Asshole right? Obviously, I didn't want to let him in and gave him a horn but he insist. Anyway, I managed to go through and he was at the back of me.

Suddenly, he overtake the fast lane which was next to me and gave me a horn instead. So, I got so freaking angry, went behind him and started my horns back at him. Then he stopped suddenly. Just there....stopped. Asshole. He created a jam at the back of me. And there are practically no more cars in front of him. An asshole which is so fucking selfish! Then with his small balls, he sped off and quickly go away in the other turning while I try giving him a chase. Seeing that that turning isn't the way I want to go, I gave up chasing. Pussy gay fucking selfish asshole guy!

The surge in adrenaline was....was....really amazing! But I realize the consequences of getting angry. First, I don't have anything to gain from my act in the above scenario. Secondly, if he comes down the car and start a fight, we'll end up in the police station. Thirdly, it's a waste of time too. Fourthly, this scenario will remain in my mind. Man, how foolish are my acts too. I really need to learn to control my anger. Although he was wrong, but if i can control my anger, things will not be this bad. Hmm...I really have to learn...=D

2008-07-06T13:52:00.004+08:00

You put a straw into me and suck my juice.
You cut me into pieces and eat my flesh.
You suck and suck and suck...and I'm almost broke.

And just before I broke, I graduate with a MBBS degree. =D

You're my favourite...IMU!

Ever wonder why medical schools charges you a fortune to read medicine? Here is a small scenario.

Jack the farmer came to Kedah and decided to settle there. When he was there, he decided to farm and he paid a small rent for a LARGE picece of land because no one was farming in Kedah besides him. Others, seeing him farming there decided to come too and start farming. Sooner or later, the land is filled with farmers but more and more farmers are pouring in. The landlords of course have the strength of bargain and they began to demand for higher and higher rent.

Apply this situation to IMU.

Thousands of applicants every semester apply for a seat in IMU to study medicine. But IMU only accept about 240 applicants. Clearly, IMU have the right to bargain at this situation. They start raising and raising their tuition fees and more and more people still apply to IMU.

Me, somehow able to afford it began to apply to IMU. And that is where life began! =D

P/S: Apply the above farming example to NEP. Because too many farmers in Kedah are of one race and they became pretty rich very fast due to farming, the government decided to introduce NEP forcing 30% of the farmers there to leave because NEP demands any local company to have at least 30% Bumiputra holders. To hell with NEP if you want our country to prosper. Hard work is the answer!